【名作共读】死者

死者

詹姆斯·乔伊斯 著
王智量 译

看楼人的女儿莉莉简直是双脚离地在飞跑了,她刚刚把一位先生带进底层营业所后面的餐具间,帮他脱掉大衣,断断续续的前门门铃可又响起来了,她只得匆匆奔过空荡荡的过道,给另一位客人开门。幸亏不要她也伺候女客人。凯特小姐和朱莉娅小姐想到了这一层,把楼上的浴室改做女客们的化妆室了。凯特小姐和朱莉娅小姐现在正在那儿,聊着天,笑着,大惊小怪地没事儿瞎忙着,还轮番走到楼梯口,从扶手栏杆上向下张望,朝楼下对莉莉大声喊着,问她是谁来了。

这从来都是件大事情,莫坎家的几位小姐每年一次的舞会。她们所有的熟人都来参加,家庭的成员,家里的老朋友,朱莉娅唱诗班里的队员,凯特教过的一些已经长大成人的学生,甚至玛丽•简的学生有的也来参加。没有哪回不是尽欢而散的。就人们记忆所及,好多好多年了,这舞会一向是开得很成功的;自从她们的哥哥帕特去世,凯特和朱莉娅从斯托尼•巴特那幢房子里搬出来,带上玛丽•简,她们唯一的侄女儿,一块住在阿雪岛上这幢幽暗、冷落的房子里以来,一直是这样。她们从楼下做粮食生意的富勒姆先生手里租下了楼上一层,已经有足足三十个年头了。玛丽•简那时候还是个穿短衫裤的小丫头,如今已是家里的台柱子了。海丁顿街上的管风琴归她弹。她从专科学校毕业,还每年一度在老音乐厅的楼上开一次学生演奏会。她的好多学生都是金斯顿和达尔基一带上等人家的子女。她的姨妈们虽然老成那样了,也都在尽自己的一份力。朱莉娅,尽管已经两鬓斑白,仍然是“亚当与夏娃”唱诗班的第一女高音,凯特,因为身体太弱,不能多跑动,就在后屋那架老式方型大钢琴上给启蒙学生教音乐课。莉莉,看楼人的女儿,给她们做女仆的工作。虽然她们生活得简朴,她们主张要吃的好;样样都买顶好的:带梭形骨头的牛腰肉、三先令一磅的茶叶和上等的瓶装黑啤酒。莉莉照吩咐做事,极少有差错,所以她跟三位女主人处得挺好。她们都爱大惊小怪,如此而已。不过她们唯一不能忍受的是跟她们顶罪。

当然喽,这样一个晚上,她们大惊小怪是有充分理由的。早就过了十点钟,可是加布里埃尔跟他妻子还不见影儿。此外,她们还非常害怕弗雷狄•马林斯可能喝醉了酒来的。她们怎么也不希望玛莉•简的哪个学生看见他醉醺醺的样子;而他要是这样子,有时还很难对付呢。弗雷狄•马林斯总是迟到,然而她们奇怪加布里埃尔会让什么事拖着呢:这就是为什么她们隔上两分钟便要走到楼梯扶手处,问莉莉加布里埃尔或是弗雷狄来了没有。

“噢,康罗伊先生,”莉莉为加布里埃尔开门时对他说,“凯特小姐和朱莉娅小姐还以为您不会来了呢。晚上好,康罗伊太太。”

“我保证她们会这么想的,”加布里埃尔说,“可是她们忘记了,我这位太太真要命,得花三个钟头打扮自己呢。”

他立在擦鞋垫上,把他套鞋上的雪往下蹭,这时莉莉把他妻子陪到楼梯口,喊了一声:“凯特小姐,康罗伊太太来了。”

凯特和朱莉娅马上蹒跚地从幽暗的楼梯上走下来。她俩都吻了加布里埃尔的妻子,说她一定给活活冻坏了吧,又问加布里埃尔是否跟她一道来了。

“我在这儿,跟邮件一样准时呢,凯特姨妈!上楼吧,我这就来,”加布里埃尔在暗处大声说。

三个女人说笑着往楼上女化妆室走去,他还在继续使劲儿地蹭他的脚。薄薄一层雪绕边儿盖在他大衣的肩头上,像条披肩似的;盖在他的套鞋上,像鞋头上的花纹似的;他咯吱咯吱地解开冻硬的粗呢大衣上的纽扣,这时一阵室外的芳香的寒气从他衣服的缝隙和褶皱中散发出来。

“又下雪了吗,康罗伊先生?”莉莉问。

她领他走进餐具间,去帮他脱大衣。加布里埃尔听她称呼自己姓时发出的那三个音节,微微一笑,瞧了她一眼。她是个细长身材,正在抽条儿的姑娘,面色发白,头发是干草色。小房间里的煤气灯把她照得更苍白了。当她还是个小孩子,老是抱着个破布娃娃坐在楼梯最低一级上的时候,加布里埃尔已经认识她了。

“又下了,莉莉,”他回答,“我看得下一整夜呢。”

他抬头望望餐具间的天花板,楼上脚步的踢踏和拖曳震得天花板都在摇晃了,他听了一会儿钢琴声,然后又瞧瞧这个姑娘,她正在搁板的另一头小心地把他的大衣叠好。

“告诉我,莉莉,”他口气和蔼地说,“你现在还上学吗?”

“噢,不了,先生,”她回答,“我今年不上学了,往后也不再上了。”

“喔,那么,”加布里埃尔快活地说,“我看哪个好日子,我们该去参加你跟你那个年轻人的婚礼了吧,嗯?”

女孩回过头瞧他一眼,非常辛酸地说:

“现在的男人都只会说废话,把你身上能骗走的东西全骗走。”

加布里埃尔脸红了,仿佛他觉得自己做错了事情似的,他眼睛不朝她看,把自己的套鞋甩脱下来,一个劲儿地用他的厚手套擦着他的漆皮鞋。

他是个壮实的、高高个儿的青年人。他双颊上红润的血色甚至向上延展到他的额际,在那儿泛作几片不成形状的淡红色;在他没有胡须的面庞上,一副眼镜屏挡着他一双灵敏的、永不宁静的眼睛,眼镜上光洁的镜片和铮亮的镀金框架也在永不宁静地闪耀着光辉。他那有光泽的黑头发从中间分开,又长又弯地梳向耳后,在帽子压出的一道纹路下轻微地卷曲着。

把皮鞋擦得发亮了,他便站直身子,把背心向下拉一拉,使他更贴身地罩在他丰满的躯体上。然后他从口袋里迅速地掏出一枚硬币来。

“喔,莉莉,”他说着,把钱塞进她手里,“过圣诞节了,是吗?不过是……一点小意思……”

他赶快向门外走去。

“噢,不,先生!”女孩子大声说,跟他走过来。“真的,先生,我不要。”

“过圣诞节了!过圣诞节了!”加布里埃尔说着,一边几乎是小跑步地向楼梯走去,同时向她挥动一只手,要她把钱收下。

女孩见他已经走下楼梯了,便在他身后高声说:

“那么,谢谢您了,先生。”

他在客厅门外等着这支华尔兹结束,听着衣裾从门边擦过和脚步在地板上拖动的声音。女孩子那句辛酸而意外的回话让他仍然心绪不宁。这句话让他显得抑郁,他把袖口拉拉平,把领结整一整,试图驱散这种气氛。然后他从背心口袋里掏出一张小纸片,看了看他为自己的演讲所列的提纲。他还拿不定主意要不要用罗伯特•勃朗宁的几行诗,因为他怕这超出了听他讲话的人们的知识水平。引几段他们能知道是莎士比亚或是歌曲集上的字句会更好些。这些人的鞋跟的粗俗的磕碰声和鞋底在地板上的拖曳声使他想起,他们的文化等级跟他的不同。对他们引用他们所不能懂的诗,只能使自己显得滑稽。他们会想,他在炫耀自己高人一等的教育。他跟他们打交道就会失败,就像他在楼下餐具间里跟那个姑娘打交道失败一样。他把调子定错了。他整个演讲从头到尾都错了,是个彻底的失败。

这时候,他的姨妈们和他的妻子从女客化妆室出来了。他的姨妈是两位身材矮小,衣着朴素的老妇人。朱莉娅姨妈大约高上一英寸左右。她的头发向下披着盖住耳朵尖,是灰白色的;她那张脸宽大松弛,也是灰白色的,但是脸上有几处颜色比较深。虽然她体格结实,立得端端正正,她迟钝的眼睛和分开的嘴唇使她看起来是个不知道自己身在何处,也不知道该往何处去的女人。凯特姨妈比较有生气。她的面色比她妹妹的健康,脸上尽是皱纹和褶子,好像一只干缩了的红苹果,她的头发也用同样老式的样子编起来,还没有失去成熟的胡桃颜色。

她俩都真诚地吻了加布里埃尔。他是她们心爱的侄子,死去的姐姐爱伦的儿子,她嫁的是港口船坞公司的特•捷•康罗伊。

“格莉塔给我说,你们今儿晚上不打算坐出租马车回蒙克斯顿了,加布里埃尔。”凯特姨妈说。

“不了,”加布里埃尔说,转身向她的妻子,“我们去年可受够了,是吗?你记不记得,凯特姨妈,格莉塔给冻成什么样子了?马车窗子一路上咯咯咯地响,车过梅里翁之后,东风就往车里灌,可真够呛的。格莉塔害了一次重感冒。”

凯特姨妈一本正经地皱着眉,他说每句话她都点一次头。

“非常对,加布里埃尔,非常对,”她说。“你尽可能仔细总是不错的。”

“可是要说格莉塔她呀,”加布里埃尔说,“要是依着她,她准会冒着雪走回家去的。”

康罗伊太太笑了。

“您别听他的,凯特姨妈,”她说,“他可真烦死人了,什么为了汤姆的眼睛晚上要用绿灯罩呀,要让他练哑铃呀,强迫伊娃吃麦片粥呀。可怜的孩子!她简直见了麦片粥就恨!……哦,可你们怎么也猜不出,他现在逼我穿些什么!”

她发出一串响亮的笑声,对她丈夫瞧了瞧,他爱慕和幸福的眼光正从她的衣服上移到她面孔和头发上。两位姨妈也亲切地笑着,因为加布里埃尔的婆婆妈妈的作风,向来是她们的笑柄。

“套鞋!”康罗伊太太说,“这是最新的玩意儿。只要路上有点潮湿,我就得穿上套鞋。甚至今儿晚上,他也要我穿上,可是我不肯。下次他要给我买的,该是一套潜水服了。”

加布里埃尔神经质地笑着,接着好像要让自己安心似的的拍拍领结,这时凯特姨妈笑得都直不起腰了,这个笑话让她非常开心。朱莉娅姨妈脸上的笑容不久便消逝了,她闷闷不乐的眼神转向她侄儿的脸庞。停了一会儿,她问:

“套鞋是什么呀,加布里埃尔?”

“套鞋吗,朱莉娅!”她姐姐惊讶地说。“天哪,你难道不知道套鞋是什么?你把它穿在你……穿在你的靴子上,格莉塔,是吗?”

“是的,”康罗伊太太说,“用古塔胶做的。我们俩现在都各有一双了。加布里埃尔说大陆上人人都穿的。”

加布里埃尔皱皱眉头说,似乎稍微有点生气:

“这没有什么奇怪的嘛,可是格莉塔认为非常好笑,她说,套鞋这个词儿让她想起

克瑞斯蒂剧团(克瑞斯蒂剧团:十九世纪美国人乔治•克瑞斯蒂在纽约创办的一种剧团,有白人扮演黑人演唱黑人歌曲,直到二十世纪初,人们仍习惯称这种剧团为“克瑞斯蒂”剧团。)的演员。”

“可是,告诉我,加布里埃尔,”凯特姨妈思路敏捷、措词得体地说,“你当然找好房间了,格莉塔刚刚说……”

“噢,房间没问题,”加布里埃尔回答。“我在格列沙姆订好一间。”

“说真的,”凯特姨妈说,“办得好极了。还有孩子们哪,格莉塔,你不为他们担心吗?”

“哦,就一个晚上嘛,”康罗伊太太说。“再说,贝茜会照顾好他们的。”

“说真的,”凯特姨妈又说了,“有个像她那样的保姆该多称心,一个你能靠得住的人!瞧那个莉莉,我敢说,我不知道这阵子她怎么啦。她简直跟从前完全不一样了。”

加布里埃尔正想就这一点向姨妈问几个问题,然而她突然停住话,目送她妹妹走开去,朱莉娅晃晃悠悠地往楼下走,正从楼梯扶手上伸长脖子朝下望。

“啊,我问你,”她几乎是烦躁地说,“朱莉娅上哪儿去了?朱莉娅!朱莉娅!你上哪儿去呀?”

朱莉娅已经下了一段楼梯了,又走回来,态度温顺地报告说:

“弗雷狄来了。”

同时传来一阵掌声和钢琴手的最后的装饰性乐段,说明华尔兹舞结束了。客厅门从里向外打开,几对舞伴走了出来。凯特姨妈急忙把加布里埃尔拉向一边,俯在他耳边悄悄说:

“溜下楼去,加布里埃尔,求求你,看他对不对头,要是喝醉了,就别让他上楼来。我敢说他是喝醉了的。我敢说他是的。”

加布里埃尔走到楼梯旁,从扶手栏杆上往下倾听。他能听见两个人在餐具间谈话的声音。然而他听出了弗雷狄•马林斯的笑声。他脚步很重地走下楼去。

“真让人宽心,”凯特姨妈对康罗伊太太说,“有加布里埃尔在这儿。有他在这儿,我总是觉着安心点儿……朱莉娅,瞧,戴丽小姐跟鲍尔小姐得吃点儿点心。谢谢您弹得漂亮的华尔兹舞曲,戴丽小姐。真叫人觉着愉快。”

一个高高的,面容干瘪的人,生一撮硬挺的灰白小胡髭,皮肤黝黑,正跟他的舞伴打客厅出来从旁边走过,说道:

“我们也来点儿点心好吗,莫坎小姐?”

“朱莉娅,”凯特姨妈当即说,“这是布朗先生和弗朗小姐。朱莉娅,陪他们跟戴丽小姐和鲍尔小姐一道去。”

“我是个讨女士们喜欢的人,”布朗先生说,嘴巴噘得小胡子都翘直了,把满脸的皱纹都笑出来了。“您知道,莫坎小姐,她们那么喜欢我的原因是……”

他没说完这句话,马上就陪三位女客往后屋去了,因为他见凯特姨妈听不清他说话。后屋正当中摆了两张拼在一起的方桌,朱莉娅姨妈正跟看楼人一块儿把一张大台布拉直,铺在桌子上。餐具柜上整齐地排列着杯盘碗碟和一束束的刀叉和汤匙。方型大钢琴合上盖子,顶上也当餐具柜用,放着各种菜肴和甜食。屋角一只小些的餐具柜前有两个年轻人站着,在喝苦味蛇麻子啤酒。

布朗先生把他受托照管的女士们引到那里,开玩笑地请她们三位都尝点女宾用的混和甜饮料,又热,又浓,又甜。她们说她们从没喝过烈性的饮料,他便为她们开了三瓶柠檬水。然后他请年轻人当中的一位让一让,拿起有玻璃塞的细颈酒瓶,给自己满满儿斟了一杯威士忌。当他呷一口酒品品味道的时候,两个年轻人恭敬地看着他。

“上帝帮助我,”他笑眯眯地说,“正是医生吩咐我喝的。”

他干瘪的面庞上展出一副比较开朗的笑容,三位女士对他的诙谐报以音乐般的笑声,笑得前后摇晃着身子,肩膀激动地抽搐着。其中最勇敢的一位说:

“噢,布朗先生呀,我敢说医生从来不会这样吩咐的。”

布朗先生把他的威士忌又啜了一口,侧身做了个鬼脸,说道:

“啊,你们瞧,我就是那位大名鼎鼎的卡西迪太太,据说她讲过:‘喂,玛丽•格兰姆斯,假若我不喝,您就强迫我喝,因为我感觉我需要喝。’”

他发热的面孔向前探得有点儿太亲热了,他又装出一副非常俗的都柏林腔调,所以这些年轻女士们,出于同一种本能,都一声不响听着他。弗朗小姐,她是玛丽•简的一个学生,问戴丽小姐她弹的那支华尔兹舞曲叫什么名字;布朗先生发觉人家不注意他了,便立即转向两位青年,他们比她们更能赏识他一些。

一位红面孔的年轻女人,穿一身蓝紫色衣裳,走进屋里来,激动地拍着说大声说:

“跳四对舞了!跳四对舞了!”

凯特姨妈紧跟她进来,大声说:

“两位先生,三位女士,玛丽•简!”

“哦,这儿有伯金先生和克里根先生,”玛丽•简说,“克里根先生,您和鲍尔小姐跳舞好吗?弗朗小姐,让我给您找位舞伴吧,伯金先生。哦,现在都好了。”

“三位女士,玛丽•简,”凯特姨妈说。

两位年轻人恭请三位女士跳舞,玛丽•简转向戴丽小姐。

“噢,戴丽小姐,您真是太好、太好了,已经给两场舞伴奏过,可是我们今晚上的确是太缺少女舞伴了。”

“我一点儿不在意呢,莫坎小姐。”

“不过我有一位出色的舞伴介绍给您,巴特尔•达西先生,那位男高音。回头我还要请他唱一个。整个都柏林都在入迷地谈论他呢。”

“漂亮的嗓子,漂亮的嗓子!”凯特姨妈说。

钢琴已经两次弹起第一节舞的序曲,玛丽•简便把她请到的几位急忙带出这间屋。他们刚出去,朱莉娅姨妈就慢腾腾地踱进来,向身后望着什么。

“怎么回事儿,朱莉娅?”凯特姨妈急切地问。“是谁呀?”

朱莉娅正拿进一卷餐巾来,转过身向着她姐姐简单地说,仿佛这个问题让她出乎意外似的:

“是弗雷狄,凯特,加布里埃尔陪着他呢。”

其实,已经看到加布里埃尔就在她身后了,正引着弗雷狄•马林斯跨过楼梯口的平台。后者是一个约莫四十岁左右的年轻人,身段和体格都和加布里埃尔相似,两个肩头很圆。他的面孔肥胖而苍白,只有厚厚的两只向下挂着的耳垂上和两扇鼻翼上才有点血色。他相貌粗俗,一只塌鼻子,额头凸出又向后斜缩回去,嘴唇是肿胀而噘出的。他的眼皮厚重的眼睛和稀疏的头发的凌乱样子,显出一副没睡醒的神气。他在楼梯上给加布里埃尔讲一个故事,刚讲到关键的地方,他正在为此开心地笑着,同时用他左手拳头的指关节来回擦着他的左眼。

“晚上好,弗雷狄,”朱莉娅姨妈说。

弗雷狄•马林斯向几位莫坎小姐说了声晚上好,态度好像很简慢,因为他一向说起话来是噎声噎气的,随后,看见布朗先生立在餐具柜边向他裂开嘴笑,便脚步不稳地穿过房间,重新开始低声讲起他刚刚告诉过加布里埃尔的故事来。

“他不是那么糟糕吧,是吗?”凯特姨妈对加布里埃尔说。

加布里埃尔皱着眉头,然而他立即舒展开来,回答说:

“哦,不是,几乎看不出。”

“他不是个极糟的家伙吗?”她说,“他可怜的妈妈在除夕晚上要他起过誓的。不过,走吧,加布里埃尔,咱们去客厅吧。”

在她跟加布里埃尔一块走出这间屋之前,她皱皱眉头,来回挥动食指向布朗先生打暗号,提醒他。布朗先生点点头作答,等她走了,他便对弗雷狄•马林斯说:

“那么,特狄,让我给您满满来一杯柠檬水,给您提提精神吧。”

弗雷狄•马林斯的故事快要讲到高潮,不耐烦地挥挥手,不听他的,然而布朗先生先是提醒弗雷狄•马林斯注意他衣服有个地方不整齐,然后倒上满满一杯柠檬水递给他。弗雷狄•马林斯用左手机械地接下玻璃杯,因为右手正忙于机械地调整着他的衣服。布朗先生又一次笑得满脸皱纹,给他自己斟了一杯威士忌,这时,弗雷狄•马林斯的故事正要讲到高潮,突然爆发出一阵高声的咳嗽般的大笑,他把还没喝过的、满得溢出来的杯子放下,开始用他左手拳头的指关节来回擦着左眼睛,尽管他还在发出阵阵的笑声,还极力要把他最后一段话再重复一遍。

玛丽•简给客厅里寂静的听众演奏她学院式的曲子,其中满是速奏和困难的乐段,加布里埃尔不能听进去。他喜欢音乐,但是她正弹的这首曲子他觉得没有旋律,他并且怀疑其他听众是否会觉得有什么旋律,虽然是他们请求玛丽•简弹点儿什么的。四个年轻人从吃点心的房间出来,听到钢琴声便立在门边,几分钟后又两个两个地走开了。似乎只有两个人能够领略这音乐,一个是玛丽•简自己,她的两只手在键盘上飞快地移动,或在停顿时从键盘上拎起来,好像一个女术士在诅咒的瞬间里的两只手,另一个是凯特姨妈,她立在玛丽•简肘边为她翻乐谱。

涂满蜂蜡的地板在庞大的枝型吊灯照耀下闪闪发光,把加布里埃尔的眼睛刺激得难受,他便向钢琴上方的墙壁望去。那儿挂着一幅画,画的是《罗密欧与朱丽叶》中阳台上一场,旁边是一副关于伦敦古堡中两王子被害的画,(伦敦古堡是座监狱。理查三世在古堡中杀害两王子。详见莎士比亚《理查三世》。)这是朱莉娅姨妈年轻时用红、蓝、褐三色绒线绣的。大概在她们小时候上的学校里,这类活计要教一学年。他母亲曾给他做过一件紫色波纹毛葛背心当生日礼物,上边有些小狐狸头花样,褐色段子衬里,还有圆形的深紫红色扣子。真奇怪,他母亲居然没有音乐才能,虽然凯特姨妈总是称她作莫坎家的智囊。她和朱莉娅两人一直好像为她们这位贵妇般的姐姐感到有些骄傲。她的照片摆在穿衣镜前。她膝头上放一本打开的书,正在把书里的什么指给康斯坦丁看,他穿一身海军服躺在她脚边。她儿子们的名字都是她起的,因为她对于家庭生活中的尊严是非常敏感的。多亏她,康斯坦丁现在在巴尔不里干(巴尔不里干:都柏林郡北部沿海的一个镇名。)当高级牧师,也多亏她,加布里埃尔自己在皇家大学取得了学位。当他回想起她绷着脸反对他婚姻的情景时,他脸上掠过一层阴影。她那时用过的几个轻蔑字句至今隐隐在他的记忆中引起怨恨;有一回她谈到格莉塔,说她像乡下人似的做作,而这对格莉塔是完全不真实的。她最后在蒙克斯顿他们家里长期卧病的期间,全都是格莉塔伺候她的。

他知道玛丽•简一定是快要弹完她的曲子了,因为她又重新弹起了开头时的旋律,每一小节后面都来一段溜音节的速奏,当他在等待结束时,那种怨恨情绪在他心里渐渐消逝了。乐曲以一段高音部八度颤音和一段结尾的低音部八度音阶而告终。一阵热烈的掌声向玛丽•简表示祝贺,她红着脸,神经紧张地收起乐谱,从屋里逃出去。最热烈的掌声来自门口那四个年轻人,他们在曲子开始时走开到吃点心的房间里去了,而当琴声停止时又回来了。

跳四对舞的人都安排定了。加布里埃尔发现给他安排的舞伴是艾弗丝小姐。她是个为人坦率的、健谈的年轻小姐,脸上有雀斑,一双棕黄色的眼睛突出来。她没有穿低领的紧身胸衣,领子正面别着一枚大大的胸针,上面刻有爱尔兰文题铭和格言。

当他们站好位置时,她突如其来地说:

“我有件事情要想跟您问明白。”

“跟我?”加布里埃尔说。

她严肃地点点头。

“什么事情?”加布里埃尔对她一本正经的态度微微一笑。

“加•康这个人是谁?”艾弗丝小姐回答。转过眼睛瞧着他。

加布里埃尔脸红了,正打算把眉毛一拧,装作好像他不了解似的,这时她单刀直入地说:

“噢,天真无邪的小姑娘!我发现您在给《每日快报》写文章呢。嘿,您就不觉得害臊吗?”

“我干嘛要害臊呢?”加布里埃尔问,眨眨眼睛,试图笑一笑。

“我可为您害臊呢,”艾弗丝小姐直率地说。“您怎么会给报纸写那种东西。我从前没想到,您是个西布立吞人。”(西布立吞人:古代盎格鲁 - 撒克逊人入侵以前住在不列颠岛上的凯尔特族人,后被迫退入西部山地,逐渐形成近代威尔士人:一部分渡海迁居高卢的阿尔魔利卡。故西布立吞人即指威尔士人。此处艾弗丝只是讽刺加布里埃尔的行为不像个爱尔兰人。)

加布里埃尔脸上露出一种迷惑的表情。的确,他每星期三为《每日快报》文学评论栏写一篇文章,人家为此付给他十五个先令。但这绝不会使他变成一个西布立吞人。比起那张数目小得可怜的支票来,他对收到的那些送来让他评论的书更欢迎。他爱抚摸新出版的书封面,翻翻其中的书页,差不多每天当他在学院里的教学工作结束后,他习惯于去沿码头一带那些旧书店逛逛,去巴切勒路的希基书店,去阿斯顿码头上的韦布书店或梅西书店,或是去附近一条小街道上的奥克洛希西书店。他不知道怎样对付她的指责。他想说,文学是超政治的。然而,他们是多年的朋友了,他们的经历是彼此相似的,先是读大学,后来当教师:他不能冒险对她说一句大话。他继续眨巴眼睛,试图显出笑容,而且笨拙地喃喃说,他认为写书评同政治不相干。

轮到他俩转到对面去的时候,他还是不知所措和漫不经心。艾弗丝小姐热情地一把抓紧他的手,又用温柔而友好的口气说:

“当然,我不过是开开玩笑。来吧。咱们该过去了。”

等他俩又到了一块儿,她谈起大学的问题,于是加布里埃尔感到自在多了。她的一位朋友把他评勃朗宁诗歌的文章拿给她看。她就是这样发现这个秘密的:但是她非常喜欢这篇评论。后来她突然说:

“噢,康罗伊先生,您今年夏天到阿兰岛(阿兰岛:爱尔兰岛东北,大西洋中的一个小岛名)来做次短途旅行好吗?我们要在那儿住整整一个月。去大西洋里呆一呆可真美呢。您一定要来。克兰西先生要来的,还有基尔肯尼和凯斯林•卡尼。格莉塔也准会觉得美极了,如果她来的话。她是康诺特人(康诺特:爱尔兰的一个省)吧,是吗?”

“她老家在那儿,”加布里埃尔简略地回答。

“可是您回来的,是吗?”艾弗丝小姐说着,用她的一只温热的手热切地按住他的肩膀。

“事实是这样,”加布里埃尔说,“我刚安排了要上……”

“上哪儿?”艾弗丝小姐问道。

“啊,您知道,我每年都跟几个人出去兜一圈,这样可以……”

“可是上哪儿呢?”艾弗丝小姐问。

“啊,我们通常是去法国,或者是比利时,或者也许是德国,”加布里埃尔尴尬地说。

“您为什么要去法国和比利时呢,”艾弗丝小姐说,“而不去您自己的土地上看看呢?”

“啊,”加布里埃尔说,“一部分是为了能跟那几种语言保持接触,一部分是为了换换空气。”

“难道您就没有自己的语言——爱尔兰语,需要保持接触吗?”艾弗丝小姐问。

“啊,”加布里埃尔说,“要说起这个,您知道,爱尔兰语不是我的语言。”

他们两旁的人都转过来倾听这场盘问了。加布里埃尔紧张地左边望望,右边望望,他已经被折磨得额头上泛起红晕,力图在这种情况下保持自己的好情绪。

“您难道没有自己的土地可以去看看吗?”艾弗丝小姐接着说,“您对它一无所知的土地,您自己的人民,您自己的祖国?”

“噢,跟您说真话吧,”加布里埃尔突然顶撞她说,“我的祖国已经让我厌烦了,厌烦了!”

“为什么?”艾弗丝小姐问。

加布里埃尔没有回答,因为他这句顶撞话是他自己激动了。

“为什么?”艾弗丝小姐又问一次。

他俩得一块去看看,再说,既然他也没有回答她,艾弗丝小姐便兴奋地说:

“当然咯,您没法回答。”

加布里埃尔试图掩饰他的激动,就非常卖力地跳舞。他避开她的眼光,因为他见她脸上有一种愠怒的表情。然而当大家连成一串,而他又挨着她的时候,他惊奇地感到他的手被紧紧地握着。她从眉毛下古怪地望了他一会儿,直望到他微微一笑。然后,正当排成一串的人要重新散开时,她踮起脚尖,凑近他耳朵悄声说:

“西布立吞人!”

四对舞跳完了,加布里埃尔走开去,来到远处一个屋角里弗林斯•马林斯的母亲在那儿坐着。她是一位矮胖、虚弱的白头发老太太。她的嗓音跟她儿子的一样,有点儿发噎,所以她稍微有些口吃。人家已经告诉她弗雷狄来了,说他差不多是完全正常的加布里埃尔问她渡海峡时情况怎样。她跟她出嫁的女儿住在格拉斯哥,每年来都柏林玩一趟。她温和地回答说,她渡海峡时平稳极了,船长对她非常照顾。她还谈起她的女儿在格拉斯哥住的房子多漂亮,谈起他们那儿所有的朋友们。当她在唠唠叨叨地说的时候,加布里埃尔在力图把他和艾弗丝小姐的一场不愉快的插曲从头脑里清除掉。这个女孩,或者说女人,不管她是什么吧,当然是个热心人,可是说话做事总得看个时候才对。也许他不该像那么样来回答她。可是她没权利当众叫他西布立吞人呀,哪怕是开玩笑吧。她是想让他在人们面前出丑,她当众诘难他,还用她一双家兔似的眼睛瞪着他。

他看见他妻子正从一双双华尔兹舞伴中间向他走来。她走到他身边,她对着他的耳朵说:

“加布里埃尔,凯特姨妈想知道,是不是还像往年一样由你来切鹅肉。戴丽小姐切火腿,我来切布丁。”

“好的,”加布里埃尔说。

“这场华尔兹以结束,她就先把年轻客人送过去,这样餐桌旁边就只是我们了。”

“你跳舞了吗?”加布里埃尔问。

“当然跳了。你没看见我吗?你跟莫莉•艾弗丝俩嚷嚷些什么?”

“没嚷嚷,怎么?她说我嚷嚷了?”

“好像是的。我在想法儿让那位达西先生唱歌。他满以为自己了不起呢,我觉得。”

“没嚷嚷过,”加布里埃尔不愉快地说,“只是她要我去爱尔兰西部玩一趟,我说我不去。”

她妻子兴奋地一拍手,轻轻一跳。

“哦,去呀,加布里埃尔,”她喊着说。“我真想再看看高尔韦呢。”

“你要喜欢你就去,”加布里埃尔冷冷地说。

她瞧了他一会儿,就转向马林斯太太说:

“您瞧这个丈夫有多好!马林斯太太。”

她穿过房间回到原处去了,马林斯太太并没在意人家打断她的话,接着对加布里埃尔谈苏格兰有什么美丽的去处和美丽的风景。她女婿每年都带她们去湖泊区游览,她们每次都钓鱼。她女婿是个钓鱼的能手。一天他捉到一条美丽的大鱼,旅馆的主人还给他们烧好,当菜吃呢。

加布里埃尔几乎听不见她说些什么。马上就要用晚餐了,他又开始想他的演讲和引文。当他看见弗雷狄•马林斯穿过屋子走来见他的母亲,加布里埃尔就从椅子上站起来,让他坐,自己退到窗口的斜墙旁。这间屋已经收拾干净,从后屋里传来盘子和刀叉的磕碰声。留在客厅里的人看来也不想再跳舞了,聚成小堆在悄悄交谈。加布里埃尔用热乎乎、颤巍巍的手指轻轻弹着冰冷的窗玻璃。外面该有多冷啊!假如一个人出去,先沿着河岸,再穿过公园散散步,该多舒服!树枝上一定覆盖着雪花,威灵顿(威灵顿(1769-1852):英国统帅。在反对拿破仑战争中,为反法联盟统帅之一,以指挥滑铁卢战役闻名。)纪念碑上面一定堆成了一顶明亮的帽子。要是在那儿,要比在晚餐桌旁舒服多少啊!

他匆匆温习了一下他的讲演的提纲:爱尔兰人的殷勤好客、悲哀的回忆、赐人以美丽和快乐的三女神、帕里斯(帕里斯:希腊神话中,由特洛伊王子帕里斯判断三位女神哪一位最美丽,后来故事发展引起特洛伊战争。)、所引的勃朗宁的诗句。他自言自语地说了一遍他在评论中写过的句子:“你觉得正在听一段扰人心绪的音乐。”艾弗丝小姐赞扬过这篇评论。她是真心的吗?在她那一套宣传后边,是不是真正有她自己的生活?这个晚上之前,他们之间不曾有过什么敌意。一想到她会在晚餐桌旁,当他发言的时候,用她那批评和嘲弄的眼光朝上望着他,他就不安。也许她看到他演讲失败,不会感到惋惜吧。一个想法出现在他脑子里,这给了他勇气。他会暗暗提到凯特姨妈和朱莉娅姨妈说:“女士们,先生们,我们中间现在正处于衰退的一代人可能有缺点,但是就我来说,我认为他们是有某些优秀品质的,像殷勤好客、幽默和慈爱,而这些品质依我看来,正是在我们周围成长着的、非常严肃、受过太多教育的新的一代人所缺少的。”好极了,这段话是说给艾弗丝小姐听的。他的姨妈们只不过是两个没有学识的老太太,有什么可关心的?

房间里的一阵低语声吸引了他的注意。布朗先生满带骑士风度地陪着朱莉娅姨妈从房门口走来,她倚在他的手臂上,微笑着,低垂着头。一阵不争气的噼里啪啦的掌声,一直送她来到钢琴面前,玛丽•简在琴凳上坐稳后,朱莉娅姨妈就不再微笑,半转过身子以便使她的声音能清楚地投进房间,这是掌声才渐渐平息下来。加布里埃尔听出了那个序曲。她嗓子在音调上是有力而又清晰的,精神十足地配合着一段段使曲调华丽的速奏。虽然她唱得很快,却甚至连一个最小的装饰音也没漏掉。倾听着歌声,不看歌唱者的面容,就能感受并且分享迅疾而可靠的灵感引起的激情。加布里埃尔和其他人一块儿在歌声终止时大声地鼓掌,从看不见的晚餐桌旁也传来了响亮的掌声。掌声听来是那样真诚,以致当朱莉娅姨妈俯身把封面上有她名字的第一个字母的旧皮面歌本放回乐谱架上时,一抹微微的红晕泛上了她的脸颊。弗雷狄•马林斯斜着脑袋好听得更清楚些,人家都停住了,他还在大声鼓掌,并且热烈地对他母亲谈论着,他母亲则庄重地、慢悠悠地点着头表示默许。最后,等他没法再鼓掌了,他便突然站起身来,匆匆穿过房间走到朱莉娅姨妈面前,双手抓住她的胳膊,摇着,不只是因为太激动了,还是因为他嗓子里的噎声太多,他说不出话来。

“我刚才还在对我母亲说,”他说,“我从没听见您唱得这么好,从没有听见过。没有,我从没听见您的嗓子像今天晚上这样好。好!现在您信吗?是真的。我敢用名誉担保,是真的。我从没听见您的嗓子那么清亮,那么……那么优美和清亮,从没听见过。”

朱莉娅姨妈把自己的手从他手中抽回来,大方地笑了笑,轻轻说了些不敢当的话。布朗先生把手向她伸过去,手心摊开,用一种演出主持人向听众介绍一个天才演员的架势对近旁的人说:

“朱莉娅•莫坎小姐,我最新的发现!”

他正在自顾自地大笑,弗雷狄•马林斯转身向他,说道:

“好了,布朗,你如果认真去发现,还可能发现你的发明并不高明。我所能说的仅仅是,打我到这儿来,我就从没听见她唱得有一半这么好。这是千真万确的话。”

“我也没听见过,”布朗说,“我认为她的嗓子大有进步。”

朱莉娅姨妈耸了耸肩,温顺而自傲地说:

“三十年前,跟一般嗓子比,我的嗓子并不坏。”

“我常对朱莉娅说,”凯特姨妈断然地说,“在那个合唱队里,人家简直就不把她当回事儿。可是她从来不肯听我的。”

她转过身来好像在求助于其他人的高见,帮她来对付一个倔强的孩子似的,这时,朱莉娅姨妈双目朝前凝视,脸上隐隐显出一种缅怀往昔的笑容。

“不啊,”凯特姨妈接着说,“她谁的话也不听从,白天黑夜,黑夜白天地在那个唱诗班里给人家苦干。圣诞节早晨六点钟就去唱!都是为了什么?”

“啊,难道不是为了上帝的荣耀吗,凯特姨妈?”玛丽•简在琴凳上转了个身,微笑着问道。

“上帝的荣耀我全知道,玛丽•简,可是我认为,把唱诗班里苦了一辈子的女人们都赶走,让一群妄自尊大的小男孩子骑在她们头顶上,对于教皇来说,根本不是件荣耀的事情。我想假如教皇那样做了,那是为了教会的好处。可那是不公平的,玛丽•简,那是不对的。”

她说得激动起来,还想再说下去,为她的妹妹争几句,因为这是一个让她伤心的话题,但玛丽•简见所有跳舞的人都回来了,便和解地把话打断。

“哎,凯特姨妈,你是在惹布朗先生生气呢,他的宗教信仰跟您的不同。”

凯特姨妈转向布朗先生,他听见人家提到自己的宗教,正在裂开嘴笑,凯特姨妈连忙说:

“噢,我并不怀疑教皇做得对。我不过是个傻老太婆,我也不敢这样做,不过还有日常的礼貌和感谢这些人人知道的事情呀。要是我处在朱莉娅的地位上,我就会面对面地向那个希利神父说……”

“再说,凯特姨妈,”玛丽•简说,“我们大家真是都饿了,我们一饿就都好吵架。”

“我们渴了也好吵架呢,”布朗先生添上一句说。

“所以我们最好去吃饭,”玛丽•简说,“以后再来结束这场讨论吧。”

在客厅门外的过道上,加布里埃尔发现他的妻子正在设法说服艾弗丝小姐留下来吃饭。但是艾弗丝小姐已经戴上帽子,正在扣斗篷扣子,不肯留下来。她一点儿都不觉得饿,并且她已经超过了她该呆的时间。

“不过十分钟嘛,莫莉,”康罗伊太太说,“不会耽误你事儿的。”

“吃一点嘛,”玛丽•简说。“跳了那么多的舞。”

“我真是不能再呆了,”艾弗丝小姐说。

“我怕你玩得一点儿也不开心呢,”玛丽•简无奈地说。

“非常开心呢,我想你保证,”艾弗丝小姐说,“不过你得让我现在就走才行。”

“可你怎么回家呢?”康罗伊太太说。

“噢,沿码头走几步就到了。”

加布里埃尔犹豫了一会儿,说:

“假如你愿意,艾弗丝小姐,我送您回家吧。假如您真是非走不可的话。”

但是艾弗丝小姐突然从他们身边走开了。

“我不听这个,”她嚷道。“看老天爷份上,吃你们的晚饭去,别管我了。我还好好儿的,能照管我自己。”

“唉,你真是个怪里怪气的姑娘,莫莉,”康罗伊太太率直地说。

“晚安,亲爱的,”艾弗丝小姐笑着嚷了一句,奔下楼梯。

玛丽•简凝视着她的背影,脸上显出阴郁、迷惑的表情,康罗伊太太靠在扶梯把手上听过道里响起开门声。加布里埃尔在问自己,他是不是她突然离去的原因。但是她看上去并没有不高兴——她一路笑着走去的嘛。他从楼梯口上茫然望下去。

这时,凯特姨妈跌跌撞撞地从开晚餐的房间里出来,几乎是绝望地绞着两只手。

“加布里埃尔在哪儿?”她嚷道。“加布里埃尔到底在哪儿呀?大家全等在那儿,虚位以待呢,没人来切鹅了!”

“我在这儿呢,凯特姨妈!”加布里埃尔猛地活跃起来,喊着:“需要的话,我可以切整整一群鹅。”

一直棕黄色的肥鹅摆在桌子的一端,另一端:在一个装饰着欧芹细枝的皱纹纸垫上,摆着一只大火腿,已经剥了皮,撒满了干面包粉,胫骨处套着一个精美的纸花边,火腿旁边是一块五香牛腿肉。在这相对的两端之间是平行的两列其他菜肴:高高两堆果子冻,一红一黄;一只浅底盘满盛着大块的牛奶冻和红色果酱,一个绿色带梗状柄的叶形大盘,里边是一枝枝紫色葡萄干和去皮的杏子,另一只同样的盘子里,是堆成整齐的长方形的士麦那(士麦那:土耳其港口)无花果,一盘上面撒有豆蔻沫的牛奶蛋糊,满满一小盆包着金银纸的巧克力和糖果,一只玻璃花瓶里插着一些长长的芹菜茎。桌子正中立着两只矮胖的老式雕花细颈玻璃瓶,一只盛着白葡萄酒,另一只盛着深色的雪利酒,它们像卫兵似的守卫着一只水果盘,盘子托起尖尖的一堆橘子和美洲苹果。在盖拢的方形钢琴上有一只还没上桌的用大黄盘盛着的布丁,它后边是三排烈性黑啤酒、淡啤酒和矿泉水,像士兵一样依照它们各自制服的颜色分别排列成队。前两排是黑色的,贴着咖啡和红色标签,第三排也是最短的一排是白色的,瓶上横系着绿色的饰带。

加布里埃尔大模大样地坐在首席上,看了看刀锋,便把叉子稳稳地插进了鹅身上。这会儿他觉得相当自在,因为他是个运刀的能手,顶喜欢坐在丰盛餐桌的首席上。

“弗朗小姐,给您来点什么?”他问,“一个翅膀呢,还是一片脯子肉?”

“一小片脯子肉就行了。”

“希金斯小姐,您呢?”

“随您便吧,康罗伊先生。”

加布里埃尔和戴丽小姐把盛着鹅肉的盘子和盛着火腿跟五香牛肉的盘子对调,莉莉端着一盘包在白餐巾纸里的粉嘟嘟的热土豆沿桌送给客人,这是玛丽•简的主意,她还建议过要给鹅肉浇上苹果沙司,可是凯特姨妈说,她一向觉得没有苹果沙司的本色烤鹅就很好了,她只希望她永远别吃到比这更坏的鹅肉。玛丽•简照应着她的学生们,要他们都吃上最好的一片。凯特姨妈和朱莉娅姨妈从钢琴上把黑啤酒、淡啤酒和矿泉水一瓶瓶打开,递过来,啤酒是为男宾们准备的,矿泉水是为女宾们准备的。笑声和喧哗声,让菜声和辞谢声,刀叉声和软木塞、玻璃塞的打开声乱成一团。加布里埃尔给大家分完了第一份,没给自己切一份,马上又开始分第二份。每个人都向他大声抗议,他不得不妥协,喝了一大口黑啤酒,因为他发现切鹅肉也是件费劲的事。玛丽•简一声不响地坐在那儿用她的晚餐,可是凯特姨妈和朱莉娅姨妈仍旧跌跌撞撞地围着桌子转,一会儿这个在前面,一会儿那个在前面,互相挡住去路,不让人注意地互相吩咐些事情,但是她们说,时间还多着呢,最后,弗雷狄•马林斯先生站起身捉住凯特姨妈,在一片哈哈的笑声中,扑通一下把她按在椅子上。

给每个人都分好了,加布里埃尔笑着说:

“嗯,要是哪位客人想再来点儿俗人们说的鹅肚皮里的填馅儿,就请说话。”

大家齐声请他自己开始用晚餐,莉莉拿着三个她专为他留下的土豆走过来。

“好极了,”加布里埃尔又喝了一口酒开开胃,亲切地说,“女士们,先生们,请你们在几分钟之内忘了我的存在吧。”

他开始吃晚餐,不介入桌上的谈话,趁人们谈话时,莉莉在收拾桌上的菜盘。谈话的题目是当时正在皇家剧院演出的歌剧团。男高音巴特尔•达西先生,一个留着潇洒的小胡子的深肤色的年轻人,高度赞扬剧团的首席女低音,可是弗朗小姐认为她的表演风格很俗气。弗雷狄•马林斯说,在舞剧《欢乐》的第二部分里,有个黑人队长唱歌,他的嗓子是他听到过的最好的男高音之一。

“您听过他唱吗?”他隔着桌子问巴特尔•达西先生。

“没有,”巴特尔•达西先生漫不经心地回答。

“因为,”弗雷狄•马林斯解释说,“我很想知道您对他的意见。我认为他的嗓子美极了。”

“真正的好东西总是要特狄来发现的,”布朗先生放肆地对桌上的客人们说。

“为什么他不能也有条好嗓子呢?”弗雷狄•马林斯尖锐地发问。“就因为他只是个黑人吗?”

没人来答复这个问题,于是玛丽•简把大伙引回到正统歌剧上来。她的一个学生送她一张《迷娘》(《迷娘》:歌德原著,法国马思耐谱为歌剧的名作。)的免费入场券,当然啦,非常好,她说,但是它使她想起了可怜的乔治娜•伯恩斯。布朗先生还要扯起许多往事呢,他扯到了过去常到都柏林来的那些老意大利剧团——梯让斯,伊尔玛•德•莫尔兹卡,康帕尼尼,伟大的特列别里,久格里尼,拉维里,阿拉布罗,他说,那些日子才能在都柏林听到像样的歌声,他还谈到老皇家剧院的顶层楼座从前是怎样地每夜客满,一天晚上,一个意大利男高音怎样在听众的要求下一连唱了五遍“让我像士兵那样倒下”,每一遍都唱出了一个高音 C,顶楼上的男孩子们有时怎样热情奔发,从某个有名的歌剧女演员的马车下解下马来,自己给她拉车,招摇过市,把她送回旅馆里。他问道:干吗他们现在不上演那些堂皇的歌剧了,比如《迪诺拉》,《鲁克列齐亚•波尔吉亚》(鲁克列齐亚•波尔吉亚传说是文艺复兴时教皇亚历山大六世之女,用她的故事写的剧本不止一个。蒂诺拉是德国音乐家迈尔贝尔作曲的意大利语歌剧)?因为他们找不到好嗓子唱这些歌剧,这就是原因。

“噢,啊,”巴特尔•达西先生说,“依我看,现在还是有像当年一样的好歌唱家的。”

“他们在哪儿呢?”布朗先生针锋相对地问。

“伦敦、巴黎、米兰都有,”巴特尔•达西先生激动地说。“比如,我认为卡鲁索就也挺好,假不比您刚才提到的那些人更好的话。”

“也许是这样,”布朗先生说,“但是我可以告诉您,我非常怀疑这一点。”

“噢,我只要能听卡鲁索唱歌,什么都肯给,”玛丽•简说。

“要我说呀,”正在那儿剔一根骨头肉的凯特姨妈发言了,“只有一个男高音。我的意思是,能使我满意的。可是我想你们中间大概没人听他唱过歌。”

“他是谁呀,莫坎小姐?”巴特尔•达西先生彬彬有礼地问。

“他叫,”凯特姨妈说,“帕金森。我是在他顶红的时候听他唱的,我认为他那时候的嗓子,是最棒的男高音嗓子了。”

“奇怪,”巴特尔•达西先生说。“我从没听人说起过他。”

“对,对,莫坎小姐说得对,”布朗先生说。“我记得听过老帕金森唱歌,不过他对我说来是太远太远的往事了。”

“一个美丽、纯净、甜蜜而又圆润的英格兰男高音,”凯特姨妈热情地说。

加布里埃尔吃完了,那只硕大的布丁移到了桌上,重又响起叉匙的碰击声。加布里埃尔的妻子舀出一匙匙布丁,把碟子沿桌往下传。半路上,由玛丽•简接着,在碟子里浇满木莓冻,或橘子冻,或牛奶冻和果酱。布丁是朱莉娅小姐做的,四面八方都在夸她做得好。她自己说,这布丁烤得还不够黄。

“啊,莫坎小姐,”布朗先生说,“但愿您认为我是够黄的人,因为您知道,我是个黄人儿呀。(布朗说的是句俏皮话,因为布朗(brown)在英语里作“黄褐色”解)”

除了加布里埃尔之外,所有的男客们都出于对朱莉娅姨妈的赞美才吃了点布丁。加布里埃尔因为从来不吃甜食,所以芹菜就留给他吃。弗雷狄•马林斯也取了一枝芹菜便就布丁吃。他听说,芹菜是补血的,他现在正在就医。在晚餐桌旁一直沉默着的马林斯太太说,她儿子过一个星期左右要去梅勒里山。就餐的人便谈起梅勒里山来了,那儿的空气是多么清新,那儿的修士是多么好客,他们是怎样从来不向客人收一文钱。

“你们的意思是不是说,”布朗先生不相信地问,“一个家伙可以上那儿去,当旅馆似的住下来,大吃大喝一场,然后一钱不付就走掉吗?”

“噢,大多数人走时都要布施一点给修道院的,”玛丽•简说。

“但愿我们的教会也有这么个规矩,”布朗先生坦率地说。

他听说那些修士从来不讲话,早上两点多就起床,夜里睡在自己的棺材里,感到惊讶。他问他们这么做是为什么。

“那是修士会规定的,”凯特姨妈坚决地说。

“是啊,可是为什么呢?”布朗先生问。

凯特姨妈又说一遍,这是规定,就是这样。布朗先生似乎仍旧不了解。弗雷狄•马林斯尽可能地向他解释说,修士是在尽力弥补外界所有罪人们犯下的罪行。解释并不很清楚,因为布朗先生裂开嘴笑着说:

“我非常欣赏这种做法,但是,难道惬意的弹簧床对他们不是和棺材一样好睡吗?”

“棺材嘛,”玛丽•简说,“是提醒他们要记住自己最终的结局。”

因为话题越来越阴郁,大家沉默下来了,在沉默中,只听见马林斯太太模模糊糊地小声对她邻座的说:

“他们都是好人呢,那些修士,都是非常虔诚的人。”

葡萄干、杏子、无花果苹果、橘子、巧克力和糖果这会儿在满桌传递着,朱莉娅姨妈请客人们都来点葡萄酒,要不就雪利酒。开头,巴特尔•达西先生一样都不喝,但是他的一位邻座用胳膊肘碰碰他,对他小声讲了点什么,于是,他同意把酒杯斟满。渐渐地,等最后一只酒杯斟满,谈话也停了下来,大家静了一会儿,只等喝酒声和椅子移动声打破沉默。莫坎小姐们,一共三位,垂下眼睛望着台布。有人咳了一两声嗽,接着有几位先生轻轻敲了敲桌子作为保持安静的信号。完全静下来了,加布里埃尔朝后推推他的椅子,站起来。

为了鼓励他,桌子立即敲得更响了,接着,大家都停下不敲了。加布里埃尔把他十个抖动的手指按在台布上,紧张地对大家笑了笑。他的眼光遇到一排仰起的面孔,于是他便抬头望着枝型吊灯。钢琴弹奏出一支华尔兹舞曲,他能听得见裙子扫在客厅门上的声音。也许这会儿正有人站在外面码头上的雪地里,凝视着窗里的灯光,倾听着华尔兹乐曲呢。外边的空气清新的。远处是公园,公园里的树上压着雪。威灵顿纪念碑戴着一顶微微发亮的雪帽,由那里向西是一片十五英亩的雪原在闪着白光。

他开始了。

“女士们,先生们

“我有幸在今天晚上,和往年一样,来履行一项令人愉快的职责,但我恐怕我作为一个演说家的能力是微薄了,与这项职责实在太不相称。”

“不啊,不啊!”布朗先生说。

“可是无论怎样微薄吧,今晚我只好请各位谅解我是心有余而力不足,恭请各位耐心听我讲一会儿,让我尽力用言词向各位表达一下我在这个场合的感受。

“女士们,先生们,我们大家聚在这好客的人家里,围坐在这张好客的餐桌边,已经不是第一次了。我们作为几位好客的女士的款待的受用者,或者我顶好说是受害者吧,也不是第一次了。

他用手臂在空中划了个圈,停顿了一下。每个人都朝凯特姨妈、朱莉娅姨妈和玛丽•简大笑或者微笑,她们却高兴得脸色绯红。加布里埃尔更加大胆地继续说下去:

“一年又一年,我愈来愈强烈地感受到,我们的国家没有哪一种传统像好客传统一样给国家带来了那样多的荣誉,同时又需要国家那样小心翼翼地来加以保护。就我的经历所及,在现代国家中(我访问过不少国家),我们这个传统是独一无二的。也许有人会说,对于我们,这个传统与其说它值得夸耀,倒不如说它是一种弱点好。但是就算如此吧,我认为,它是一种高贵的弱点,并且是一种我坚信将在我们中间长久培养下去的弱点。有一点,至少,我是有把握的。只要前面讲到的这几位好心的女士还住在这幢屋子里——我从心底祝愿她们能住许多许多年——我们的祖先传给我们、而我们一定要再传给我们的子子孙孙的这种真诚、热心、殷勤的爱尔兰式的好客传统就一直会在我们中间保持着。”

一阵诚心诚意的赞同的低语声在餐桌四周传开。这声音使加布里埃尔突然想到,艾弗丝小姐不在了,她很不礼貌地走掉了:于是他充满自信地说:

“女士们,先生们,

“在我们中间,新的一代正在成长,这是由新思想和新原则激励的一代人。这些新思想是严肃而热情的,它的热情,甚至使用不当时,大体上,我相信,也都是诚挚的。但我们是生活在一个怀疑论的,要是我能使用这个词儿的话,一个令人思绪烦乱的时代;有时我担心,这新的一代人,这个受过教育的,或者像他们现在的情况,受过太多教育的一代人,会缺乏那些属于过去的日子的仁爱、好客和善意诙谐的品质。今天晚上我听到了好些过去大歌唱家的名字,我得承认,我似乎觉得,我们是生活在一个不够宽敞的时代。而那些日子,可以毫不夸张地被称之为是宽敞的日子;假如它们已一去不返了,那么让我们希望,至少在像今天这样的聚会中,我们将仍旧怀着自豪与亲切的感情谈到它们,将仍旧在心头缅怀着对于那些去世的伟大人物的记忆,这个世界将不会甘心让他们的美名就此消亡的。”

“对啊,对啊!”布朗先生高声说。

“然而,”加布里埃尔继续讲下去,他的声音变得更为柔和了,“在类似今天这样的聚会上,总有些这一类的比较悲哀的思想会出现在我们的脑海里:关于过去、关于青春、关于变革、关于早已不存在而我们今晚在这儿思念的他们那些张面孔。我们的生活道路上铺满了这类悲哀的记忆;但是,假如我们老是念念不忘于这些记忆,我们就会不忍心在活着的人们当中勇往直前地去进行我们的工作。我们在生活中人人都有责任所在和情之所钟,而这些东西要求我们,完全有权利要求我们去奋发努力。

“所以,我不能停留于过去而徘徊不前。今晚我不能让任何一种阴郁的说教来侵扰我们。我们从日常生活的奔波和忙碌之中解脱出来,在这儿短短地聚上一小会儿。我们在这儿相会,本着情长谊深的精神作为朋友,同时在某种程度上,本着真正的志同道合的精神作为同事,并且作为——我该怎么称呼她们呢?——都柏林音乐世界中的三位优雅女神的客人。”

来宾们听到这个比喻爆发出一阵鼓掌声和笑声。朱莉娅姨妈徒劳地向她的邻座们一个个打听,要他们告诉她加布里埃尔说的是什么。

“他说我们是希腊神话里给人以美丽和欢乐的三位女神呢,朱莉娅姨妈。”玛丽•简说。

朱莉娅姨妈并没有听懂,但是她微笑着抬起眼睛来注视着加布里埃尔,他以同样的调子继续讲:

“女士们,先生们,

“今天晚上,我并不企图去扮演帕里斯在另一个场合扮演的角色。我并不企图在她们中间去进行选择。这项任务是叫人厌恶的,也是我的能力所不能企及的。因为当我依次看着她们的时候,不论是我们主要的女主人本人,她的善良心地,她那过于善良的心地,已经成了每个任何她的人的笑柄了;或是她的妹妹,她看来是天生赋有永不凋谢的青春的,今晚她的歌声使我们所有在座的人惊叹不已和出乎意料;或是,最末的但不是最不重要的一位,我们最年轻的女主人,我认为她是天才的、快活的、勤劳的,是天下最好的一位侄女儿,我承认,女士们和先生们,我不知道该把奖品赠给她们之中的哪一位才是。”

加布里埃尔向下瞟了一眼他的两位姨妈,看见朱莉娅姨妈脸上开朗的笑容和凯特姨妈眼眶里已经涌起的泪珠,边赶忙结束他的讲话。他风度翩翩地举起他的一杯葡萄酒,同时每个人也都端起酒杯,期待他说下去,他大声说:

“让我们向她们三位一道祝酒。让我们为她们干杯,祝她们健康、富有、长寿、快乐、幸运,并且长久保持她们靠自己努力在职业上取得的骄傲地位,和她们在我们心坎上取得的荣耀而亲切的地位。”

所有的客人都站起身来,手持酒杯,转向三位坐着的女士,齐声歌唱,布朗先生领唱:

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

这点没人能否认。

凯特姨妈毫不掩饰地用手帕擦起了眼泪,甚至朱莉娅姨妈似乎也感动了。弗雷狄用他的布丁叉子打拍子,唱歌的人转过身去面面相对,好像在音乐会里一样,大家着重地唱:

除非他撒谎,

除非他撒谎。

接着再一次转向他们的女主人们,唱道:

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

他们都是快活的哥儿们呀,

这点没人能否认。

晚餐房间门外的其他客人们也应声欢呼和鼓掌,并一次又一次地重新爆发,弗雷狄•马林斯像个军官似的高擎着他的叉子。

他们站在楼下的前厅里,沁人心脾的清新空气从门外涌进来,因此凯特姨妈说:

“谁去把门关上呀。马林斯太太可要害重感冒了。”

“布朗出去了,凯特姨妈,”玛丽•简说。

“布朗到处乱窜,”凯特姨妈放低了声音。

她的口气让玛丽•简笑了起来。

“说真的,”她调皮地说,“他可殷勤呢。”

“整个圣诞节,”凯特姨妈以同样的口气说,“他就像煤气一样装在这儿。”

这回她自己高兴地笑了,接着很快补充说:

“不过叫他进来吧,玛丽•简,把门关上。但愿他没听见我的话才好。”

这时候,过道门开了,布朗先生从门外的石阶上走进来,笑得好像他的心都要裂开似的。他穿一件绿色长大衣,镶着仿阿斯特拉罕羔皮的袖口和领子,头戴一顶椭圆形的皮帽。他用手指着下边覆盖着白雪的码头,从那儿传来一阵拖长的刺耳的呼啸声。

“特狄要把都柏林所有的出租马车都喊出来了,”他说。

加布里埃尔从营业所后边的小餐具间里走出来,正往他的长大衣里伸袖子,看了看四周,说:

“格莉塔还没下来?”

“她在穿衣服,加布里埃尔,”凯特姨妈说。

“谁在那儿弹琴呢?”加布里埃尔问。

“没人。全走了。”

“噢,不,凯特姨妈,”玛丽•简说,“巴特尔•达西先生和奥卡拉汉小姐还没走。”

“有人在钢琴上乱七八糟弹着玩呢,”加布里埃尔说。

玛丽•简对加布里埃尔和布朗先生瞟了一眼,打了个冷颤说:

“看见你们两位先生裹成这个样,我也觉得冷了。在这个钟点我可不愿意走一趟你们回家去的那段路。”

“这会儿,除了在野外美美儿逛逛,或者轻车快马地奔一阵子,”布朗先生豪壮地说:“这是我最喜欢的事儿了。”

“从前我们家有过一匹非常好的马和一辆双轮轻便车的,”朱莉娅姨妈伤感地说。

“那个永远都忘记不了的姜尼,”玛丽•简笑着说。

“怎么,什么姜尼呀的稀奇事儿?”布朗先生问。

“是故世的帕特里克•莫坎,我们的祖父的,”加布里埃尔解释道,“晚年人家都称呼他老先生的,是个做熬胶生意的。”

“噢,我说,加布里埃尔呀,”凯特姨妈笑着说,“他还有座粉坊。”

“啊,熬胶也罢,粉坊也罢,”加布里埃尔说,“老先生有一匹马,名叫姜尼。姜尼在老先生的磨坊里干活,一圈又一圈地拉磨。一切都很美好;可是后来姜尼不幸的时候到了。一个大晴天,老先生想,他要摆起上流人士的架势,到公园里去参观军事检阅。”

“上帝怜悯他的灵魂吧,”凯特姨妈同情地说。

“阿门,”加布里埃尔说,“于是这位老先生,就像我说的,套上姜尼,戴上自己最好的高顶礼帽,穿上自己最好的硬领,然后,堂而皇之地驾车驶出了他的祖宅,那房子是在后街附近吧,我想。”

看着加布里埃尔的样子,大家都笑了,连马林斯太太都笑了,凯特姨妈说:

“噢,我说呀,加布里埃尔,他不住在后街呢,真的。只是磨坊在那儿。”

“他把姜尼套在车上,驶出他的祖宅。”加布里埃尔继续说下去,“直到姜尼走到它望见比利大帝雕像的地方以前,一切都非常顺利:不知是它爱上了比利大帝骑的那匹马呢,还是它以为又回到了磨坊里,反正它就围着雕像转起圈儿来了。”

加布里埃尔在其余人的大笑声中,穿着套鞋在前厅里踱了一个圈儿。

“它走了一圈又一圈,”加布里埃尔说,“而这位老先生,他是个自视颇高的老先生,非常地愤慨。‘向前走,老兄!你这是什么意思?老兄!姜尼!姜尼!真是莫名其妙!这马是怎么回事儿?’”

加布里埃尔的模仿引起了一连串大笑声,被前门上一声响亮的敲击声打断了。玛丽•简跑去开门,进来的是弗雷狄•马林斯。弗雷狄•马林斯,帽子贴在后脑勺上,肩膀冷得耸起来,正累得直喘,冒着热气。

“我只能弄到一辆出租马车,”他说。

“噢,我们沿着码头还能再找到一辆的。”加布里埃尔说。

“是啊,”凯特姨妈说,“最好别让马林斯太太老是站在风口上。”

马林斯太太由她儿子和布朗先生扶着走下门前的台阶,忙乱了一阵,把她扶上了马车。弗雷狄•马林斯跟着她爬上了车,花了好些时间才把她安顿在座位上,布朗先生给他出主意帮忙。终于,把她舒舒服服安顿好了,弗雷狄•马林斯请布朗先生也上车来。又说了一大阵子乱七八糟的话,布朗先生才上了车。马车夫把一条毯子盖在他们膝头上,然后弯下腰问他们上哪儿去。说话愈加乱七八糟了,弗雷狄•马林斯和布朗先生各自把头从马车的一个窗户里伸出来,让马车夫往不同的方向走。难是难在不知道布朗先生在中途什么地方下车好,凯特姨妈、朱莉娅姨妈和玛丽•简也站在门口台阶上帮忙讨论,七嘴八舌,相互矛盾,笑个不停。至于弗雷狄•马林斯,他是笑得一句话也说不出了。他把脑袋在马车窗子里伸进伸出,告诉他母亲,讨论进展得如何,每进出一回,他的帽子都得冒一次极大的风险,到最后,布朗先生压倒众人的喧声,向已被弄糊涂了的马车夫喊道:

“你知道三一学院吗?”

“知道,先生,”马车夫回答说。

“好,你就冲着三一学院的大门撞吧,”布朗先生说,“然后我们再告诉你上哪儿去。现在懂了吗?”

“懂了,先生,”马车夫说。

“那就像鸟儿一样向三一学院飞吧。”

“遵命,先生,”马车夫说。

鞭子一响,马车在一阵笑声和再见声中沿着码头隆隆而去。

加布里埃尔没跟其他人一块到门口去。他在过道的一个暗处盯着楼梯望。一个女人站在靠近第一段楼梯拐弯的地方,也在阴影里。他看不见她的脸,可是他能看见她裙子上赤褐色和橙红色的拼花,在阴影中显得黑一块白一块的,那是他的妻子。她倚在楼梯扶手上,在听着什么。加布里埃尔见她一动不动的样子,感到惊奇,便也竖起耳朵听。但是除了门前台阶上的笑声和争执声、钢琴弹出的几个和音和几个男人的歌唱声音之外,就再也听不出什么了。

他静静地站在过道的暗处,试图听清那声音所唱的是什么歌,同时盯着他的妻子望。她的姿态中有着优雅和神秘,好像她就是一个什么东西的象征似的。他问自己,一个女人站在楼梯上的阴影里,倾听着远处的音乐,是一种什么象征。如果他是个画家,他就要把这个姿势画出来。她的蓝色毡帽可以在幽暗的背景上衬托出她青铜色的头发,她裙子上的深色拼花衬托出那些浅色的来。他要把这幅画叫做《远处的音乐》,假如他是个画家的话。

大门关上了,凯特姨妈、朱莉娅姨妈和玛丽•简回到过道里,仍旧在笑着。

“啊,弗雷狄真糟糕,对不?”玛丽•简说,“他真是糟透了。”

加布里埃尔什么也没说,只是朝楼梯上他妻子站的地方指了指。现在大门关上了,歌声和钢琴声也就听得更清了。加布里埃尔举起手来示意她们安静。听来这歌是用爱尔兰老调子唱的,歌唱者无论对他的歌词还是对他的嗓子都没有把握。由于距离,也由于歌者的嗓子嘶哑,声音显得哀伤,歌声隐隐地传出了节奏和吐露悲痛的句子:

哦,雨点打着我浓密的头发,

露珠儿沾湿我的皮肤,

我的婴儿寒冷地躺着……

“噢,”玛丽•简大声说。“是巴特尔•达西在唱,他不会唱一个通宵的。噢,我要让他唱一支歌再走。”

“噢,行啊,玛丽•简,”凯特姨妈说。

玛丽•简擦过其他人跑向楼梯,可是她还没到楼梯上,歌声就停止了,钢琴也碰地一声关上了。

“哦,真可惜!”她叫道。“他下来了吗,格莉塔?”

加布里埃尔听见他妻子应了一声是,看见她朝他们走下来。她身后几步就是巴特尔•达西先生和奥卡拉汉小姐。

“噢,达西先生,”玛丽•简叫道,“我们都听得正入迷呢,您这样突然不唱了,简直是太不应该了。”

“整个晚上我都在他身边的,”奥卡拉汉小姐说。“康罗姨太太也是,他跟我们说他感冒得厉害,没法唱。”

“噢,达西先生,”凯特姨妈说,“那么这是撒了个很妙的小谎咯?”

“你没发觉我哑得像乌鸦吗?”达西先生粗声粗气地说。

他急忙走进餐具间,穿上长大衣。其他人被他这句粗鲁的话顶回去,不知说什么好了。凯特姨妈皱皱眉头暗示其余的人别谈这个了。达西先生正站着仔细围他的围脖,一脸不高兴的样子。

“是天气不好呀,”听了一会儿,朱莉娅姨妈说。

“是啊,人人都感冒,”凯特姨妈马上接着说,“人人都感冒。”

“人家说,”玛丽•简说,“三十年没下过这样大的雪了,我今天早晨在报纸上看到,这场雪整个爱尔兰都下遍了。”

“我喜欢看下雪,”朱莉娅姨妈伤感地说。

“我也喜欢,”奥卡拉汉小姐说,“我觉得除非地上有雪,否则圣诞节就不像真正的圣诞节。”

“可是可怜的达西先生就不喜欢雪呢,”凯特姨妈笑着说。

达西先生从餐具间走出来,脖子裹得严严实实,扣子扣得整整齐齐,用一种悔过的口气向他们谈起自己感冒的经过。大家都给他出主意,说是真的太遗憾了,极力劝他,在晚上户外可要加意保护他的喉咙。加布里埃尔注视着他的妻子,她没有加入谈话。她恰巧站在布满灰尘的扇形气窗下,煤气灯的火光照亮她深青铜色的头发,几天前,他见她在炉前烤干她的这头美发。她还是方才那个姿势,似乎没察觉到她身边的谈话。最后,她向他们转过身去,加布里埃尔看见她面颊上泛起红色,她的眼睛闪着光。一种突然的快乐从他心底涌出。

“达西先生,”她问,“您刚才唱的那支歌叫什么名字?”

“叫《奥格里姆的姑娘》,”达西先生说,“可是我记不太清了。怎么,你知道它吗?”

“《奥格里姆的姑娘》,”她重复着说,“我想不起这个歌名了。”

“这支歌子非常美,”玛丽•简说,“你今晚嗓子不好,真遗憾。”

“我说,玛丽•简,”凯特姨妈说,“别去打扰达西先生了。我不愿让他觉着烦。”

看见大家都已做好出发的准备,她便送他们来到门口,在那儿道了晚安:

“好,晚安,凯特姨妈,谢谢您给了我们这么一个快乐的夜晚。”

“晚安,加布里埃尔,晚安,格莉塔!”

“晚安,凯特姨妈,真太感谢了。晚安,朱莉娅姨妈。”

“噢,晚安,格莉塔,我没看见你呢。”

“晚安,达西先生。晚安,奥卡拉汉小姐。”

“晚安,莫坎小姐。”

“晚安,再一次祝您晚安。”

“大家都晚安。一路平安。”

“晚安,晚安。”

清晨还是很幽暗的。暗淡的黄光低覆在房屋上和河面上;天好像在往下沉一样。脚下是半融的雪,只有一道道,一片片的雪盖在屋顶上、码头的护墙上和围绕码头一带的栏杆上。街灯仍在黑沉沉的空气中红红地燃着,河那边,四院大厦(四院大厦:爱尔兰都柏林的著名建筑。),咄咄逼人地唉低沉的天空背景上显现出来。

她和巴特尔•达西先生一块在他前面走着,她的鞋子包成个褐色的小包,夹在一只胳膊下,双手把裙子从泥泞的雪地上提起。她的姿态已不像方才那么优雅了,可是加布里埃尔的眼睛依然因幸福而发亮。血液在他的血管中流涌,他思潮起伏,澎湃激荡,自豪,欢乐,温柔,英勇。

她在他前面走得那样轻捷,挺拔,使他很想不声不响地追上她,抓住她的肩膀,在她耳边说点什么傻气的、充满深情的话。在他看来,他是那样地脆弱,他渴望能够保护他不受任何东西的侵犯,并且和她单独在一起。他俩私生活的一些片段突然像星星一样在他的记忆中亮起来。一只紫红色信封放在他早餐杯子旁,他正在用手抚摸着它。鸟儿在常春藤上鸣啭,他幸福得东西也吃不下,他俩站在挤满人的月台上,他正把一张票塞进她手套的暖和的掌心里。他和她一块儿站在冷风中,从一扇有隔栅的窗子外面望进去,看一个男子在呼呼响的熔炉前做瓶子。那天冷极了。她的脸,在冰冷的空气中发出芬芳,和他的脸那么贴近,突然他向那个熔炉前的人叫道:

“那火很旺吗?”

可是那人因为炉子的响声而没有听见。也好。他很可能回答得相当粗鲁呢。

一阵更为温柔的快乐从他心底迸出,随同温暖的血液,在他的动脉里流着。如同星星的柔和的光,他们共同生活中的一些瞬间,没有人知道,也永远不会有人知道的瞬间,突然出现了,照亮了他的记忆。他急于想要让她回想起那些瞬间,让她忘记那些他俩沉闷地共同活着的年月。而只记住他们这些心醉神迷的瞬间。因为他觉得,岁月并没有能熄灭他或她的心灵。他们的孩子、他的写作、她的家务操劳,都没有能熄灭他们心灵的柔情之火。在他那时写给她的一封信中,他说:“为什么这些词句让我觉得好像是那么迟钝而冰冷?是不是因为世界上没有一个词温柔得足以用来称呼你呢?”

像远处的音乐声一般,这些他多年前写过的字句,从过去向他驶来。他非常想能跟她两人单独在一起。等别人都走开了,等他和她到了他们所住的旅馆房间里,他们就单独在一起了。他要温柔地喊她一声:

“格莉塔!”

也许她不会马上听见;她可能在换衣裳。后来他的声音里某种东西引起她的注意。她转过身来,瞧着他……

在酒店街的转角上,他们遇上一辆出租马车。辚辚的车轮声让他高兴,因为这就省得他去参加谈话了。她向车窗外望着,显得困倦。其他人只说过三两句话,指出到了某幢建筑或街道。马儿疲乏地疾驰在早晨阴霾的天空下,拖着格格作响的旧车厢,加布里埃尔又跟她坐在一辆马车中,赶去乘船,赶去度蜜月。

当马车驰过奥康内尔桥时,奥卡拉汉小姐说:

“人家说,你每回过奥康内尔桥都会看见一辆白色的马。”

“这回我看见了一个白色的人,”加布里埃尔说。

“在哪儿?”巴特尔•达西先生问。

加布里埃尔指指雕像,它身上盖着一片片的雪。他像同熟人打招呼似的向他点点头,挥挥手。

“晚安,丹,”他快活地说。

当马车来到旅馆前,加布里埃尔跳下车,不顾巴特尔•达西先生的抗议,付了车钱。他多给了车夫一个先令。车夫敬个礼,并且说:

“祝您新年如意,先生。”

“也祝您新年如意,”加布里埃尔衷心地说。

她下车时,站立在路边镶砌的石块上向其他人告别时,在他手臂上靠了一会儿。她那么轻轻地靠在他的手臂上,轻得像几个钟头之前他搂着她跳舞时似的。那时他感到骄傲和幸福,幸福,因为她是他的,骄傲,因为她的美和她那做妻子的仪态。然而此刻,在那许多记忆重新激起之后,一接触到她的身体,这音乐般的、奇异的、方向的身体,他立刻周身感到一种强烈的情欲。趁她默默无声时,他把她的手臂拉过来紧贴着自己,他俩站在旅馆的门前,他感到他俩逃脱了他们的生活和责任,逃脱了家和朋友,两人一块,怀着两颗狂乱的、光芒四射的心跑开了,要去从事一次新的冒险。

门厅里,一位老人在一只椅背顶端突出的大椅子上打瞌睡。他在柜台间点燃一支蜡烛,领他俩上楼去。他俩一声不响地跟着他。脚步在铺了厚地毯的楼梯上发出轻轻的声音,她在看守人的身后登楼,她的头在向上走时垂着,她娇弱的两肩弓起,好像有东西压在背上,她的一群紧紧贴着她身体。他本来要伸出两只手臂去拥住她的臀部,抱着她的身体,只是他手指甲使劲抵在手掌心上才止住了他身体的这种狂热的冲动。看守人在楼梯上停了一下,收拾他淌泪的蜡烛。他俩也停在他身后的下一步梯级上。寂静中,加布里埃尔能够听见融化的蜡油滴进烛盘里的声音,和他自己的心脏撞在肋骨上的声音。

看守人领他俩经过一道走廊,打开一扇门。然后他把摇摇晃晃的蜡烛放在梳妆台上,问早上几点钟喊醒他们。

“八点,”加布里埃尔说。

看守人指指电灯开关,咕哝着道歉起来,但是加布里埃尔打断了他。

“我们不需要灯。街上照进来的光就足够了。我说,”他指指蜡烛,又添了一句,“您不妨把这个漂亮的玩意儿拿走吧,求求您。”

看守人又把蜡烛拿在手里,但是动作很缓慢,因为他对这样一个新鲜的念头感到惊奇。然后他嘟哝了一声晚安就走了。加布里埃尔锁上门。

一道长长的苍白的街灯光照进屋来,从一个窗口直照到房门,加布里埃尔把长大衣和帽子甩在一只长沙发上,穿过房间走回窗前。他向下面的街道上望望,想使自己的情绪平静一点儿。然后他转过身,靠在一只五斗橱上,背向光。她已经除掉帽子和披风,正立在一面很大的转动穿衣镜前,解开她腰上的搭扣。加布里埃尔踌躇了一会儿,望着她,然后说:

“格莉塔!”

她慢慢地从镜子前转过身来,沿着那道光向他走过来。他的脸显得那么严肃而疲倦,使得加布里埃尔没法开口说话。不,还没到时间。

“你好像累了,”他说。

“我是有点儿累,”她回答道。

“你不觉得不舒服或是虚弱吗?”

“不,是累了;就是这个。”

她继续向前走到窗下,立在那儿,向外望。加布里埃尔又等了一会儿,后来,生怕羞怯会战胜自己,他就突然一下子说:

“听我说,格莉塔!”

“什么事儿?”

“你认识那个可怜人儿,马林斯吗?”他急速地问。

“认识呀,他怎么啦?”

“哎,可怜的家伙,不过说到底,他还是正派人,”加布里埃尔用一种不自然的嗓音继续说道,“他把我借给他的一英镑硬币还了我,而我并没有想要他还,说真的。可惜他不肯躲开那个布朗,因为他也不是个坏人,说真的。”

他这时烦恼得浑身颤抖。为什么她看起来那么心不在焉?他不知道怎么开头才好。她也因为什么事在烦恼吗?她要是能转身向着他或是自个儿上他这儿来该多好!像她现在这样去搂她是粗鲁的。不,他必须现在她眼睛里看见一点儿热烈的感情才行。他急于掌握住她的奇特的情绪。

“你什么时候借给他那个英镑的?”她在片刻的无言之后说。

加布里埃尔极力控制自己,不要猛烈间对酒鬼马林斯和他的一个英镑这件事说出粗鲁的话。他急于想从灵魂深处对她发出呼喊,急于把她的身体紧紧搂抱在自己的怀里,急于要制服她。然而他说:

“哦,圣诞节时候,他开了那个小贺年片商店,在亨利街上。”

他正处在冲动和情欲的狂热之中,连她从窗前走过来也没听见。她在他面前站了一会儿,目光奇异地瞧着他。然后,她忽然踮起脚尖来,两只手轻轻地搭在他的肩头,吻了吻他。

“你是个很大方的人,加布里埃尔,”她说。

加布里埃尔在颤栗,因为她突然的一吻和她说这句时的仪态让他欣喜,他把两手放在她的头发上,把它向后抚平,手指几乎没有接触到头发。这头发洗得又美又光亮。他心里的幸福已经满得溢出来了。正在他想要的时候,她自己走到他这儿来了。也许她的思想跟他的不谋而合吧。也许他感觉到了他心中急切的情欲吧,所以她就有了一种顺从的心情。现在,她这样轻易地自己迎上来,他倒奇怪他方才怎么会那样胆怯。

他站着,两手抱着她的头。然后,一条手臂急速滑过她的身体,把她搂向自己,柔情地说:

“格莉塔,亲爱的,你想要什么?”

她没有回答,也没有完全顺从他的手臂。他又柔情地说:

“告诉我,格莉塔。我觉得我知道你在想些什么。我知道吗?”

她没有马上回答。然后她说话了,眼泪夺眶而出。

“噢,我在想那支歌,《奥格里姆的姑娘》。”

她从他手中挣脱,跑向床边,两条手臂伸过床架的栏杆,把脸埋起来。加布里埃尔惊讶地立了一会儿,一动也不动,然后跟在她后面走过去。当他经过转动穿衣镜的时候,他看见自己的整个身影,看见他宽阔的、填得好好的硬衬胸,看见自己的脸孔,每当他在镜子中看见它的表情时总不免感到惑然,看见他亮闪闪的金丝眼镜,他在离她几步远的地方停下来,说:

“那支歌怎么啦?怎么会让你哭起来?”

她从臂弯里抬起头来,像个孩子似的用手臂擦干眼泪。他的声音里渗入了一种他本来不曾想有的更亲切的调子、

“怎么啦,格莉塔?”他问。

“我想起一个很久以前的人,他老是唱这支歌的。”

“这位很久以前的人是谁?”加布里埃尔微笑着问。

“是我在高尔韦住的时候认识的,那时候我跟我奶奶住在一块儿,”她说。

笑容从加布里埃尔脸上消逝了。已故阴沉的怒气开始在他思想深处聚集,而他那股阴沉的情欲的烈火也开始在他血管中愤怒地燃烧。

“是一个你爱过的人吧?”他讥笑地说。

“是一个我从前认识的年轻人,”她回答说,“名字叫迈克尔•富里。他老是唱那支歌的。《奥格里姆的姑娘》。他很不俗气。”

加布里埃尔一声不响。他不希望她认为,他对这个不俗气的年轻人感到兴趣。

“我可以那么清楚地看见他,”过了一会儿,她说。“他有那么一双眼睛,大大的、黑黑的眼睛!眼睛里还有那么一种表情——那么一种表情!”

“哦,这么说,你那时候爱他了?”加布里埃尔说。

“我常跟他出去散步,”她说,“我住在高尔韦的时候。”

一个思想从加布里埃尔头脑中闪过。

“也许就因为这个,你想跟那个叫艾弗丝的姑娘行高尔韦去吧?”他冷冰冰地说。

“去干嘛?”

她的眼光让加布里埃尔感到尴尬。他耸耸肩头说:

“我怎么知道?去见他呗,也许。”

她把眼光从他身上移开,沿着地上那道光,默不做声地向窗口望去。

“他死了,”她终于说,“他十七岁就死了。难道这么年轻就死,不可怕吗?”

“他是干什么的?”加布里埃尔问,还是讥诮的口气。

“他在煤气厂工作,”她说。

加布里埃尔感到丢脸,因为讽刺落了空,又因为从死者当众扯出这么个人来,一个在煤气厂干活的年轻人。他正满心都是他俩私生活的回忆,满心都是柔情、欢乐和欲望的时候,她却一直在心里拿他跟另一个人做比较。一阵对自身感到羞惭的意识袭击着他。他看见自己是一个滑稽人物,一个给姨妈们跑个腿儿,赚上一两个便士的小孩子,一个神经质的、好心没好报的感伤派,在一群俗人面前大言不惭地讲演,把自己乡巴佬的情欲当作美好的理想,他看见自己是他刚才在镜子里瞟到一眼的那个可怜又可鄙的愚蠢的家伙。他本能地把脊背更转过去一些,更多地挡住那道光,别让她看见自己羞得发烧的额头。

他试图仍然用他那冷冰冰的盘问语气讲话,可是开起口来,他的声音却是谦卑的、淡漠的。

“我想你跟这个迈克尔•富里谈过恋爱吧,格莉塔,”他说。

“我那时候跟他很亲密,”她说。

她的声音是含糊而悲伤的。加布里埃尔感觉到,现在如果想把她引到他原先打算的方向上去,会是多么徒劳,他抚摸着她的一只手,也很哀伤地说:

“那么他怎么那样年轻就死了呢,格莉塔?痨病吧,是吗?”

“我想他是为我死的,”她回答。

一听到这个回答,加布里埃尔感到一阵朦胧的恐惧,似乎是在他渴望达到目的的时刻里,有某个难以捉摸的、惩罚性的东西正出来跟他作对,正在它那个朦胧的世界里聚集力量反对他。然而他依靠理性努力甩开了这种恐惧,继续抚摸她的手。他没有再问她,因为他觉得她会自己告诉他的。她的手温暖而潮湿:这手对他的抚摸不作反应,但是他继续抚摸着它,恰像他在那个春天的早晨抚摸她的第一封来信一样。

“那是个冬天,”她说,“大约是冬天开始的时候,我正要离开奶奶家,上这儿的修道院来。那时候他正在高尔韦他的住处生病,不能出门,人家已经给他在奥特拉尔德的亲人们写信去了。他生的是肺结核,人家说,或者这一类的病。我一直不清楚。”

她沉默了一会,叹了一口气。

“可怜的人儿,”她说。“他非常喜欢我,他又是那么个文雅的年轻人。我们时常一块出去,散散步,你知道,加布里埃尔,在乡下人家都是这样的。要不是因为他的健康,他就去学唱歌了。他嗓子非常之好,可怜的迈克尔•富里。”

“那么,后来呢?”加布里埃尔问。

“后来我从高尔韦到修道院来的时候,他病得更厉害了,人家不让我见他。我就给他写封信,说我要去都柏林了,到夏天回来,希望他到时候会好起来。”

她停了一会儿,为了控制自己的声音,然后又说下去:“后来我动身的前一天夜里,我在尼古岛上我奶奶家里,正收拾着东西,我听见有小石块掷上来打在我窗上的声音。窗子湿得很,我看不见,我就跑下楼,我从房后溜出去,到了花园里,看见这可怜的人正立在花园的一头,浑身发抖。”

“你没让他回去吗?”加布里埃尔问。

“我求他马上回家去,告诉他,这样立在雨地里会要他命的。可是他说,他不想活了。我现在能清清楚楚、清清楚楚看见他的眼睛!他站在围墙尽头,那地方有一棵树。”

“那么他回家了吗?”加布里埃尔问。

“嗯,他回家了。等我到修道院还没一礼拜,他就死了,埋在奥特拉尔德,那儿是他老家。噢,那一天,我听说他死了的那一天!”

她停止了,她抽噎得说不出话来,她无法克制激动,脸朝下扑倒在床上,脸埋在被子里呜咽,加布里埃尔把她的手又握了一阵,不知如何是好,后来,不敢在她的悲痛的时候打扰她,他轻轻放下她的手,静悄悄地走向窗前。

她睡熟了。

加布里埃尔斜靠在臂肘上,心平气和地对她乱蓬蓬的头发和半开半闭的嘴唇望了一会儿,倾听着她深沉的呼吸。这么说,在她一生中曾有过那段恋爱史。一个人曾经为她而死去。此刻想起他,她的丈夫,在她一生中扮演了一个多么可怜的角色,他几乎不太觉得痛苦了。她安睡着。他在一旁观望,仿佛他和她从没象夫妻那样一块生活过。他好奇的眼光长久地停留在她的面庞上,她的头发上:他想着,在她有着最初少女美好的那个时候,她该是什么模样,这时,一种奇异的、友爱的、对她的怜悯进入他的心灵。甚至对自己,他也不想说她的面孔如今已不再漂亮了,然而他知道,这张面孔已不再是那张迈克尔•富里不惜为之而死的面孔。

也许她没把事情全告诉他。他的眼光移向那把椅子,那上面她撂了几件衣服。衬裙上的一条带子垂在地板上。一只靴子直立着,柔软的鞋帮已经塌下去了;另一只躺在它的旁边。他奇怪自己在一小时前怎么会那样感情激荡。是什么引起的?是他姨妈家的晚餐,是他那篇愚蠢的讲演,是酒和跳舞,在过道里告别时的说笑,沿着河在雪地里走时的快乐心情,是这些引起的。可怜的朱莉娅姨妈!她自己不久后也要变成跟帕特里克•莫坎的幽灵和他的马在一道的幽灵了。当她唱着《打扮新娘子》的时候,他在刹那间从她面孔上发现了那种形容枯槁的样子,不久以后,也许他会坐在那同一间客厅里,穿了丧服,绸帽子放在膝盖上。百叶窗关着,凯特姨妈坐在他身边,哭着,擤着鼻涕,告诉他朱莉娅是怎么死的。他搜索枯肠,想找出一些可以安慰她的话,而却只找到一些笨拙的、用不上的话。是的,是的:这不要多久就会发生了。

屋里的空气使他两肩感到寒冷。他小心地钻进被子,躺在他妻子身边。一个接一个,他们全都将变成幽灵。顶好是正当某种热情的全盛时刻勇敢地走到那个世界去,而不要随着年华凋残,凄凉地枯萎消亡。他想到,躺在他身边的她,怎样多少年来在自己心头珍藏着她情人告诉她说他不想活的时候那一双眼睛的形象。

泪水大量地涌进加布里埃尔的眼睛。他自己从来不曾对任何一个女人有过那样的感情,然而他知道,这种感情一定是爱。泪水在他眼睛里积得更满了,在半明半暗的微光里,他在想象中看见一个年轻人在一棵滴着水珠的树下的身形。其他一些身形也渐渐走近。他的灵魂已接近那个住着大批死者的领域。他意识到,但却不能理解他们变幻无常、时隐时现的存在。他自己本身正在消逝到一个灰色的无法捉摸的世界里去:这牢固的世界,这些死者一度在这儿养育、生活过的世界,正在溶解和化为乌有。

玻璃上几下轻轻的响声吸引他把脸转向窗户,又开始下雪了。他睡眼迷蒙地望着雪花,银色的、暗暗的雪花,迎着灯光在斜斜地飘落。该是他动身去西方旅行的时候了。是的,报纸说得对:整个爱尔兰都在下雪。它落在阴郁的中部平原的每一片土地上,落在光秃秃的小山上,轻轻地落进艾伦沼泽,再往西,又轻轻地落在香农河黑沉沉的、奔腾澎湃的浪潮中。它也落在山坡上安葬着迈克尔•富里的孤独的教堂墓地的每一块泥土上。它纷纷飘落,厚厚积压在歪歪斜斜的十字架上和墓石上,落在一扇扇小墓门的尖顶上,落在荒芜的荆棘丛中。他的灵魂缓缓地昏睡了,当他听着雪花微微地穿过宇宙在飘落,微微地,如同他们最终的结局那样,飘落到所有的生者和死者身上。

The Dead

By James Joyce

LILY, the caretaker’s daughter, was literally run off her feet. Hardly had she brought one gentleman into the little pantry behind the office on the ground floor and helped him off with his overcoat than the wheezy hall-door bell clanged again and she had to scamper along the bare hallway to let in another guest. It was well for her she had not to attend to the ladies also. But Miss Kate and Miss Julia had thought of that and had converted the bathroom upstairs into a ladies’ dressing-room. Miss Kate and Miss Julia were there, gossiping and laughing and fussing, walking after each other to the head of the stairs, peering down over the banisters and calling down to Lily to ask her who had come.

It was always a great affair, the Misses Morkan’s annual dance. Everybody who knew them came to it, members of the family, old friends of the family, the members of Julia’s choir, any of Kate’s pupils that were grown up enough, and even some of Mary Jane’s pupils too. Never once had it fallen flat. For years and years it had gone off in splendid style, as long as anyone could remember; ever since Kate and Julia, after the death of their brother Pat, had left the house in Stoney Batter and taken Mary Jane, their only niece, to live with them in the dark, gaunt house on Usher’s Island, the upper part of which they had rented from Mr. Fulham, the corn-factor on the ground floor. That was a good thirty years ago if it was a day. Mary Jane, who was then a little girl in short clothes, was now the main prop of the household, for she had the organ in Haddington Road. She had been through the Academy and gave a pupils’ concert every year in the upper room of the Antient Concert Rooms. Many of her pupils belonged to the better-class families on the Kingstown and Dalkey line. Old as they were, her aunts also did their share. Julia, though she was quite grey, was still the leading soprano in Adam and Eve’s, and Kate, being too feeble to go about much, gave music lessons to beginners on the old square piano in the back room. Lily, the caretaker’s daughter, did housemaid’s work for them. Though their life was modest, they believed in eating well; the best of everything: diamond-bone sirloins, three-shilling tea and the best bottled stout. But Lily seldom made a mistake in the orders, so that she got on well with her three mistresses. They were fussy, that was all. But the only thing they would not stand was back answers.

Of course, they had good reason to be fussy on such a night. And then it was long after ten o’clock and yet there was no sign of Gabriel and his wife. Besides they were dreadfully afraid that Freddy Malins might turn up screwed. They would not wish for worlds that any of Mary Jane’s pupils should see him under the influence; and when he was like that it was sometimes very hard to manage him. Freddy Malins always came late, but they wondered what could be keeping Gabriel: and that was what brought them every two minutes to the banisters to ask Lily had Gabriel or Freddy come.

“O, Mr. Conroy,” said Lily to Gabriel when she opened the door for him, “Miss Kate and Miss Julia thought you were never coming. Good-night, Mrs. Conroy.”

“I’ll engage they did,” said Gabriel, “but they forget that my wife here takes three mortal hours to dress herself.”

He stood on the mat, scraping the snow from his goloshes, while Lily led his wife to the foot of the stairs and called out:

“Miss Kate, here’s Mrs. Conroy.”

Kate and Julia came toddling down the dark stairs at once. Both of them kissed Gabriel’s wife, said she must be perished alive, and asked was Gabriel with her.

“Here I am as right as the mail, Aunt Kate! Go on up. I’ll follow,” called out Gabriel from the dark.

He continued scraping his feet vigorously while the three women went upstairs, laughing, to the ladies’ dressing-room. A light fringe of snow lay like a cape on the shoulders of his overcoat and like toecaps on the toes of his goloshes; and, as the buttons of his overcoat slipped with a squeaking noise through the snow-stiffened frieze, a cold, fragrant air from out-of-doors escaped from crevices and folds.

“Is it snowing again, Mr. Conroy?” asked Lily.

She had preceded him into the pantry to help him off with his overcoat. Gabriel smiled at the three syllables she had given his surname and glanced at her. She was a slim; growing girl, pale in complexion and with hay-coloured hair. The gas in the pantry made her look still paler. Gabriel had known her when she was a child and used to sit on the lowest step nursing a rag doll.

“Yes, Lily,” he answered, “and I think we’re in for a night of it.”

He looked up at the pantry ceiling, which was shaking with the stamping and shuffling of feet on the floor above, listened for a moment to the piano and then glanced at the girl, who was folding his overcoat carefully at the end of a shelf.

“Tell me. Lily,” he said in a friendly tone, “do you still go to school?”

“O no, sir,” she answered. “I’m done schooling this year and more.”

“O, then,” said Gabriel gaily, "I suppose we’ll be going to your wedding one of these fine days with your young man, eh? "

The girl glanced back at him over her shoulder and said with great bitterness:

“The men that is now is only all palaver and what they can get out of you.”

Gabriel coloured, as if he felt he had made a mistake and, without looking at her, kicked off his goloshes and flicked actively with his muffler at his patent-leather shoes.

He was a stout, tallish young man. The high colour of his cheeks pushed upwards even to his forehead, where it scattered itself in a few formless patches of pale red; and on his hairless face there scintillated restlessly the polished lenses and the bright gilt rims of the glasses which screened his delicate and restless eyes. His glossy black hair was parted in the middle and brushed in a long curve behind his ears where it curled slightly beneath the groove left by his hat.

When he had flicked lustre into his shoes he stood up and pulled his waistcoat down more tightly on his plump body. Then he took a coin rapidly from his pocket.

“O Lily,” he said, thrusting it into her hands, “it’s Christmastime, isn’t it? Just… here’s a little…”

He walked rapidly towards the door.

“O no, sir!” cried the girl, following him. “Really, sir, I wouldn’t take it.”

“Christmas-time! Christmas-time!” said Gabriel, almost trotting to the stairs and waving his hand to her in deprecation.

The girl, seeing that he had gained the stairs, called out after him:

“Well, thank you, sir.”

He waited outside the drawing-room door until the waltz should finish, listening to the skirts that swept against it and to the shuffling of feet. He was still discomposed by the girl’s bitter and sudden retort. It had cast a gloom over him which he tried to dispel by arranging his cuffs and the bows of his tie. He then took from his waistcoat pocket a little paper and glanced at the headings he had made for his speech. He was undecided about the lines from Robert Browning, for he feared they would be above the heads of his hearers. Some quotation that they would recognise from Shakespeare or from the Melodies would be better. The indelicate clacking of the men’s heels and the shuffling of their soles reminded him that their grade of culture differed from his. He would only make himself ridiculous by quoting poetry to them which they could not understand. They would think that he was airing his superior education. He would fail with them just as he had failed with the girl in the pantry. He had taken up a wrong tone. His whole speech was a mistake from first to last, an utter failure.

Just then his aunts and his wife came out of the ladies’ dressing-room. His aunts were two small, plainly dressed old women. Aunt Julia was an inch or so the taller. Her hair, drawn low over the tops of her ears, was grey; and grey also, with darker shadows, was her large flaccid face. Though she was stout in build and stood erect, her slow eyes and parted lips gave her the appearance of a woman who did not know where she was or where she was going. Aunt Kate was more vivacious. Her face, healthier than her sister’s, was all puckers and creases, like a shrivelled red apple, and her hair, braided in the same old-fashioned way, had not lost its ripe nut colour.

They both kissed Gabriel frankly. He was their favourite nephew the son of their dead elder sister, Ellen, who had married T. J. Conroy of the Port and Docks.

“Gretta tells me you’re not going to take a cab back to Monkstown tonight, Gabriel,” said Aunt Kate.

“No,” said Gabriel, turning to his wife, “we had quite enough of that last year, hadn’t we? Don’t you remember, Aunt Kate, what a cold Gretta got out of it? Cab windows rattling all the way, and the east wind blowing in after we passed Merrion. Very jolly it was. Gretta caught a dreadful cold.”

Aunt Kate frowned severely and nodded her head at every word.

“Quite right, Gabriel, quite right,” she said. “You can’t be too careful.”

“But as for Gretta there,” said Gabriel, “she’d walk home in the snow if she were let.”

Mrs. Conroy laughed.

“Don’t mind him, Aunt Kate,” she said. “He’s really an awful bother, what with green shades for Tom’s eyes at night and making him do the dumb-bells, and forcing Eva to eat the stirabout. The poor child! And she simply hates the sight of it!.. O, but you’ll never guess what he makes me wear now!”

She broke out into a peal of laughter and glanced at her husband, whose admiring and happy eyes had been wandering from her dress to her face and hair. The two aunts laughed heartily, too, for Gabriel’s solicitude was a standing joke with them.

“Goloshes!” said Mrs. Conroy. “That’s the latest. Whenever it’s wet underfoot I must put on my galoshes. Tonight even, he wanted me to put them on, but I wouldn’t. The next thing he’ll buy me will be a diving suit.”

Gabriel laughed nervously and patted his tie reassuringly, while Aunt Kate nearly doubled herself, so heartily did she enjoy the joke. The smile soon faded from Aunt Julia’s face and her mirthless eyes were directed towards her nephew’s face. After a pause she asked:

“And what are goloshes, Gabriel?”

“Goloshes, Julia!” exclaimed her sister “Goodness me, don’t you know what goloshes are? You wear them over your… over your boots, Gretta, isn’t it?”

“Yes,” said Mrs. Conroy. “Guttapercha things. We both have a pair now. Gabriel says everyone wears them on the Continent.”

“O, on the Continent,” murmured Aunt Julia, nodding her head slowly.

Gabriel knitted his brows and said, as if he were slightly angered:

“It’s nothing very wonderful, but Gretta thinks it very funny because she says the word reminds her of Christy Minstrels.”

“But tell me, Gabriel,” said Aunt Kate, with brisk tact. “Of course, you’ve seen about the room. Gretta was saying…”

“0, the room is all right,” replied Gabriel. “I’ve taken one in the Gresham.”

“To be sure,” said Aunt Kate, “by far the best thing to do. And the children, Gretta, you’re not anxious about them?”

“0, for one night,” said Mrs. Conroy. “Besides, Bessie will look after them.”

“To be sure,” said Aunt Kate again. “What a comfort it is to have a girl like that, one you can depend on! There’s that Lily, I’m sure I don’t know what has come over her lately. She’s not the girl she was at all.”

Gabriel was about to ask his aunt some questions on this point, but she broke off suddenly to gaze after her sister, who had wandered down the stairs and was craning her neck over the banisters.

“Now, I ask you,” she said almost testily, “where is Julia going? Julia! Julia! Where are you going?”

Julia, who had gone half way down one flight, came back and announced blandly:

“Here’s Freddy.”

At the same moment a clapping of hands and a final flourish of the pianist told that the waltz had ended. The drawing-room door was opened from within and some couples came out. Aunt Kate drew Gabriel aside hurriedly and whispered into his ear:

“Slip down, Gabriel, like a good fellow and see if he’s all right, and don’t let him up if he’s screwed. I’m sure he’s screwed. I’m sure he is.”

Gabriel went to the stairs and listened over the banisters. He could hear two persons talking in the pantry. Then he recognised Freddy Malins’ laugh. He went down the stairs noisily.

“It’s such a relief,” said Aunt Kate to Mrs. Conroy, “that Gabriel is here. I always feel easier in my mind when he’s here… Julia, there’s Miss Daly and Miss Power will take some refreshment. Thanks for your beautiful waltz, Miss Daly. It made lovely time.”

A tall wizen-faced man, with a stiff grizzled moustache and swarthy skin, who was passing out with his partner, said:

“And may we have some refreshment, too, Miss Morkan?”

“Julia,” said Aunt Kate summarily, “and here’s Mr. Browne and Miss Furlong. Take them in, Julia, with Miss Daly and Miss Power.”

“I’m the man for the ladies,” said Mr. Browne, pursing his lips until his moustache bristled and smiling in all his wrinkles. “You know, Miss Morkan, the reason they are so fond of me is----”

He did not finish his sentence, but, seeing that Aunt Kate was out of earshot, at once led the three young ladies into the back room. The middle of the room was occupied by two square tables placed end to end, and on these Aunt Julia and the caretaker were straightening and smoothing a large cloth. On the sideboard were arrayed dishes and plates, and glasses and bundles of knives and forks and spoons. The top of the closed square piano served also as a sideboard for viands and sweets. At a smaller sideboard in one corner two young men were standing, drinking hop-bitters.

Mr. Browne led his charges thither and invited them all, in jest, to some ladies’ punch, hot, strong and sweet. As they said they never took anything strong, he opened three bottles of lemonade for them. Then he asked one of the young men to move aside, and, taking hold of the decanter, filled out for himself a goodly measure of whisky. The young men eyed him respectfully while he took a trial sip.

“God help me,” he said, smiling, “it’s the doctor’s orders.”

His wizened face broke into a broader smile, and the three young ladies laughed in musical echo to his pleasantry, swaying their bodies to and fro, with nervous jerks of their shoulders. The boldest said:

“O, now, Mr. Browne, I’m sure the doctor never ordered anything of the kind.”

Mr. Browne took another sip of his whisky and said, with sidling mimicry:

“Well, you see, I’m like the famous Mrs. Cassidy, who is reported to have said: ‘Now, Mary Grimes, if I don’t take it, make me take it, for I feel I want it.’”

His hot face had leaned forward a little too confidentially and he had assumed a very low Dublin accent so that the young ladies, with one instinct, received his speech in silence. Miss Furlong, who was one of Mary Jane’s pupils, asked Miss Daly what was the name of the pretty waltz she had played; and Mr. Browne, seeing that he was ignored, turned promptly to the two young men who were more appreciative.

A red-faced young woman, dressed in pansy, came into the room, excitedly clapping her hands and crying:

“Quadrilles! Quadrilles!”

Close on her heels came Aunt Kate, crying:

“Two gentlemen and three ladies, Mary Jane!”

“O, here’s Mr. Bergin and Mr. Kerrigan,” said Mary Jane. “Mr. Kerrigan, will you take Miss Power? Miss Furlong, may I get you a partner, Mr. Bergin. O, that’ll just do now.”

“Three ladies, Mary Jane,” said Aunt Kate.

The two young gentlemen asked the ladies if they might have the pleasure, and Mary Jane turned to Miss Daly.

“O, Miss Daly, you’re really awfully good, after playing for the last two dances, but really we’re so short of ladies tonight.”

“I don’t mind in the least, Miss Morkan.”

“But I’ve a nice partner for you, Mr. Bartell D’Arcy, the tenor. I’ll get him to sing later on. All Dublin is raving about him.”

“Lovely voice, lovely voice!” said Aunt Kate.

As the piano had twice begun the prelude to the first figure Mary Jane led her recruits quickly from the room. They had hardly gone when Aunt Julia wandered slowly into the room, looking behind her at something.

“What is the matter, Julia?” asked Aunt Kate anxiously. “Who is it?”

Julia, who was carrying in a column of table-napkins, turned to her sister and said, simply, as if the question had surprised her:

“It’s only Freddy, Kate, and Gabriel with him.”

In fact right behind her Gabriel could be seen piloting Freddy Malins across the landing. The latter, a young man of about forty, was of Gabriel’s size and build, with very round shoulders. His face was fleshy and pallid, touched with colour only at the thick hanging lobes of his ears and at the wide wings of his nose. He had coarse features, a blunt nose, a convex and receding brow, tumid and protruded lips. His heavy-lidded eyes and the disorder of his scanty hair made him look sleepy. He was laughing heartily in a high key at a story which he had been telling Gabriel on the stairs and at the same time rubbing the knuckles of his left fist backwards and forwards into his left eye.

“Good-evening, Freddy,” said Aunt Julia.

Freddy Malins bade the Misses Morkan good-evening in what seemed an offhand fashion by reason of the habitual catch in his voice and then, seeing that Mr. Browne was grinning at him from the sideboard, crossed the room on rather shaky legs and began to repeat in an undertone the story he had just told to Gabriel.

“He’s not so bad, is he?” said Aunt Kate to Gabriel.

Gabriel’s brows were dark but he raised them quickly and answered:

“O, no, hardly noticeable.”

“Now, isn’t he a terrible fellow!” she said. “And his poor mother made him take the pledge on New Year’s Eve. But come on, Gabriel, into the drawing-room.”

Before leaving the room with Gabriel she signalled to Mr. Browne by frowning and shaking her forefinger in warning to and fro. Mr. Browne nodded in answer and, when she had gone, said to Freddy Malins:

“Now, then, Teddy, I’m going to fill you out a good glass of lemonade just to buck you up.”

Freddy Malins, who was nearing the climax of his story, waved the offer aside impatiently but Mr. Browne, having first called Freddy Malins’ attention to a disarray in his dress, filled out and handed him a full glass of lemonade. Freddy Malins’ left hand accepted the glass mechanically, his right hand being engaged in the mechanical readjustment of his dress. Mr. Browne, whose face was once more wrinkling with mirth, poured out for himself a glass of whisky while Freddy Malins exploded, before he had well reached the climax of his story, in a kink of high-pitched bronchitic laughter and, setting down his untasted and overflowing glass, began to rub the knuckles of his left fist backwards and forwards into his left eye, repeating words of his last phrase as well as his fit of laughter would allow him.

Gabriel could not listen while Mary Jane was playing her Academy piece, full of runs and difficult passages, to the hushed drawing-room. He liked music but the piece she was playing had no melody for him and he doubted whether it had any melody for the other listeners, though they had begged Mary Jane to play something. Four young men, who had come from the refreshment-room to stand in the doorway at the sound of the piano, had gone away quietly in couples after a few minutes. The only persons who seemed to follow the music were Mary Jane herself, her hands racing along the key-board or lifted from it at the pauses like those of a priestess in momentary imprecation, and Aunt Kate standing at her elbow to turn the page.

Gabriel’s eyes, irritated by the floor, which glittered with beeswax under the heavy chandelier, wandered to the wall above the piano. A picture of the balcony scene in Romeo and Juliet hung there and beside it was a picture of the two murdered princes in the Tower which Aunt Julia had worked in red, blue and brown wools when she was a girl. Probably in the school they had gone to as girls that kind of work had been taught for one year. His mother had worked for him as a birthday present a waistcoat of purple tabinet, with little foxes’ heads upon it, lined with brown satin and having round mulberry buttons. It was strange that his mother had had no musical talent though Aunt Kate used to call her the brains carrier of the Morkan family. Both she and Julia had always seemed a little proud of their serious and matronly sister. Her photograph stood before the pierglass. She held an open book on her knees and was pointing out something in it to Constantine who, dressed in a man-o-war suit, lay at her feet. It was she who had chosen the name of her sons for she was very sensible of the dignity of family life. Thanks to her, Constantine was now senior curate in Balbrigan and, thanks to her, Gabriel himself had taken his degree in the Royal University. A shadow passed over his face as he remembered her sullen opposition to his marriage. Some slighting phrases she had used still rankled in his memory; she had once spoken of Gretta as being country cute and that was not true of Gretta at all. It was Gretta who had nursed her during all her last long illness in their house at Monkstown.

He knew that Mary Jane must be near the end of her piece for she was playing again the opening melody with runs of scales after every bar and while he waited for the end the resentment died down in his heart. The piece ended with a trill of octaves in the treble and a final deep octave in the bass. Great applause greeted Mary Jane as, blushing and rolling up her music nervously, she escaped from the room. The most vigorous clapping came from the four young men in the doorway who had gone away to the refreshment-room at the beginning of the piece but had come back when the piano had stopped.

Lancers were arranged. Gabriel found himself partnered with Miss Ivors. She was a frank-mannered talkative young lady, with a freckled face and prominent brown eyes. She did not wear a low-cut bodice and the large brooch which was fixed in the front of her collar bore on it an Irish device and motto.

When they had taken their places she said abruptly:

“I have a crow to pluck with you.”

“With me?” said Gabriel.

She nodded her head gravely.

“What is it?” asked Gabriel, smiling at her solemn manner.

“Who is G. C.?” answered Miss Ivors, turning her eyes upon him.

Gabriel coloured and was about to knit his brows, as if he did not understand, when she said bluntly:

“O, innocent Amy! I have found out that you write for The Daily Express. Now, aren’t you ashamed of yourself?”

“Why should I be ashamed of myself?” asked Gabriel, blinking his eyes and trying to smile.

“Well, I’m ashamed of you,” said Miss Ivors frankly. “To say you’d write for a paper like that. I didn’t think you were a West Briton.”

A look of perplexity appeared on Gabriel’s face. It was true that he wrote a literary column every Wednesday in The Daily Express, for which he was paid fifteen shillings. But that did not make him a West Briton surely. The books he received for review were almost more welcome than the paltry cheque. He loved to feel the covers and turn over the pages of newly printed books. Nearly every day when his teaching in the college was ended he used to wander down the quays to the second-hand booksellers, to Hickey’s on Bachelor’s Walk, to Web’s or Massey’s on Aston’s Quay, or to O’Clohissey’s in the bystreet. He did not know how to meet her charge. He wanted to say that literature was above politics. But they were friends of many years’ standing and their careers had been parallel, first at the University and then as teachers: he could not risk a grandiose phrase with her. He continued blinking his eyes and trying to smile and murmured lamely that he saw nothing political in writing reviews of books.

When their turn to cross had come he was still perplexed and inattentive. Miss Ivors promptly took his hand in a warm grasp and said in a soft friendly tone:

“Of course, I was only joking. Come, we cross now.”

When they were together again she spoke of the University question and Gabriel felt more at ease. A friend of hers had shown her his review of Browning’s poems. That was how she had found out the secret: but she liked the review immensely. Then she said suddenly:

“O, Mr. Conroy, will you come for an excursion to the Aran Isles this summer? We’re going to stay there a whole month. It will be splendid out in the Atlantic. You ought to come. Mr. Clancy is coming, and Mr. Kilkelly and Kathleen Kearney. It would be splendid for Gretta too if she’d come. She’s from Connacht, isn’t she?”

“Her people are,” said Gabriel shortly.

“But you will come, won’t you?” said Miss Ivors, laying her arm hand eagerly on his arm.

“The fact is,” said Gabriel, “I have just arranged to go----”

“Go where?” asked Miss Ivors.

“Well, you know, every year I go for a cycling tour with some fellows and so----”

“But where?” asked Miss Ivors.

“Well, we usually go to France or Belgium or perhaps Germany,” said Gabriel awkwardly.

“And why do you go to France and Belgium,” said Miss Ivors, “instead of visiting your own land?”

“Well,” said Gabriel, “it’s partly to keep in touch with the languages and partly for a change.”

“And haven’t you your own language to keep in touch with – Irish?” asked Miss Ivors.

“Well,” said Gabriel, “if it comes to that, you know, Irish is not my language.”

Their neighbours had turned to listen to the cross- examination. Gabriel glanced right and left nervously and tried to keep his good humour under the ordeal which was making a blush invade his forehead.

“And haven’t you your own land to visit,” continued Miss Ivors, “that you know nothing of, your own people, and your own country?”

“0, to tell you the truth,” retorted Gabriel suddenly, “I’m sick of my own country, sick of it!”

“Why?” asked Miss Ivors.

Gabriel did not answer for his retort had heated him.

“Why?” repeated Miss Ivors.

They had to go visiting together and, as he had not answered her, Miss Ivors said warmly:

“Of course, you’ve no answer.”

Gabriel tried to cover his agitation by taking part in the dance with great energy. He avoided her eyes for he had seen a sour expression on her face. But when they met in the long chain he was surprised to feel his hand firmly pressed. She looked at him from under her brows for a moment quizzically until he smiled. Then, just as the chain was about to start again, she stood on tiptoe and whispered into his ear:

“West Briton!”

When the lancers were over Gabriel went away to a remote corner of the room where Freddy Malins’ mother was sitting. She was a stout feeble old woman with white hair. Her voice had a catch in it like her son’s and she stuttered slightly. She had been told that Freddy had come and that he was nearly all right. Gabriel asked her whether she had had a good crossing. She lived with her married daughter in Glasgow and came to Dublin on a visit once a year. She answered placidly that she had had a beautiful crossing and that the captain had been most attentive to her. She spoke also of the beautiful house her daughter kept in Glasgow, and of all the friends they had there. While her tongue rambled on Gabriel tried to banish from his mind all memory of the unpleasant incident with Miss Ivors. Of course the girl or woman, or whatever she was, was an enthusiast but there was a time for all things. Perhaps he ought not to have answered her like that. But she had no right to call him a West Briton before people, even in joke. She had tried to make him ridiculous before people, heckling him and staring at him with her rabbit’s eyes.

He saw his wife making her way towards him through the waltzing couples. When she reached him she said into his ear:

“Gabriel. Aunt Kate wants to know won’t you carve the goose as usual. Miss Daly will carve the ham and I’ll do the pudding.”

“All right,” said Gabriel.

“She’s sending in the younger ones first as soon as this waltz is over so that we’ll have the table to ourselves.”

“Were you dancing?” asked Gabriel.

“Of course I was. Didn’t you see me? What row had you with Molly Ivors?”

“No row. Why? Did she say so?”

“Something like that. I’m trying to get that Mr. D’Arcy to sing. He’s full of conceit, I think.”

“There was no row,” said Gabriel moodily, “only she wanted me to go for a trip to the west of Ireland and I said I wouldn’t.”

His wife clasped her hands excitedly and gave a little jump.

“O, do go, Gabriel,” she cried. “I’d love to see Galway again.”

“You can go if you like,” said Gabriel coldly.

She looked at him for a moment, then turned to Mrs. Malins and said:

“There’s a nice husband for you, Mrs. Malins.”

While she was threading her way back across the room Mrs. Malins, without adverting to the interruption, went on to tell Gabriel what beautiful places there were in Scotland and beautiful scenery. Her son-in-law brought them every year to the lakes and they used to go fishing. Her son-in-law was a splendid fisher. One day he caught a beautiful big fish and the man in the hotel cooked it for their dinner.

Gabriel hardly heard what she said. Now that supper was coming near he began to think again about his speech and about the quotation. When he saw Freddy Malins coming across the room to visit his mother Gabriel left the chair free for him and retired into the embrasure of the window. The room had already cleared and from the back room came the clatter of plates and knives. Those who still remained in the drawing room seemed tired of dancing and were conversing quietly in little groups. Gabriel’s warm trembling fingers tapped the cold pane of the window. How cool it must be outside! How pleasant it would be to walk out alone, first along by the river and then through the park! The snow would be lying on the branches of the trees and forming a bright cap on the top of the Wellington Monument. How much more pleasant it would be there than at the supper-table!

He ran over the headings of his speech: Irish hospitality, sad memories, the Three Graces, Paris, the quotation from Browning. He repeated to himself a phrase he had written in his review: “One feels that one is listening to a thought- tormented music.” Miss Ivors had praised the review. Was she sincere? Had she really any life of her own behind all her propagandism? There had never been any ill-feeling between them until that night. It unnerved him to think that she would be at the supper-table, looking up at him while he spoke with her critical quizzing eyes. Perhaps she would not be sorry to see him fail in his speech. An idea came into his mind and gave him courage. He would say, alluding to Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia: “Ladies and Gentlemen, the generation which is now on the wane among us may have had its faults but for my part I think it had certain qualities of hospitality, of humour, of humanity, which the new and very serious and hypereducated generation that is growing up around us seems to me to lack.” Very good: that was one for Miss Ivors. What did he care that his aunts were only two ignorant old women?

A murmur in the room attracted his attention. Mr. Browne was advancing from the door, gallantly escorting Aunt Julia, who leaned upon his arm, smiling and hanging her head. An irregular musketry of applause escorted her also as far as the piano and then, as Mary Jane seated herself on the stool, and Aunt Julia, no longer smiling, half turned so as to pitch her voice fairly into the room, gradually ceased. Gabriel recognised the prelude. It was that of an old song of Aunt Julia’s – Arrayed for the Bridal. Her voice, strong and clear in tone, attacked with great spirit the runs which embellish the air and though she sang very rapidly she did not miss even the smallest of the grace notes. To follow the voice, without looking at the singer’s face, was to feel and share the excitement of swift and secure flight. Gabriel applauded loudly with all the others at the close of the song and loud applause was borne in from the invisible supper-table. It sounded so genuine that a little colour struggled into Aunt Julia’s face as she bent to replace in the music-stand the old leather-bound songbook that had her initials on the cover. Freddy Malins, who had listened with his head perched sideways to hear her better, was still applauding when everyone else had ceased and talking animatedly to his mother who nodded her head gravely and slowly in acquiescence. At last, when he could clap no more, he stood up suddenly and hurried across the room to Aunt Julia whose hand he seized and held in both his hands, shaking it when words failed him or the catch in his voice proved too much for him.

“I was just telling my mother,” he said, “I never heard you sing so well, never. No, I never heard your voice so good as it is tonight. Now! Would you believe that now? That’s the truth. Upon my word and honour that’s the truth. I never heard your voice sound so fresh and so… so clear and fresh, never.”

Aunt Julia smiled broadly and murmured something about compliments as she released her hand from his grasp. Mr. Browne extended his open hand towards her and said to those who were near him in the manner of a showman introducing a prodigy to an audience:

“Miss Julia Morkan, my latest discovery!”

He was laughing very heartily at this himself when Freddy Malins turned to him and said:

“Well, Browne, if you’re serious you might make a worse discovery. All I can say is I never heard her sing half so well as long as I am coming here. And that’s the honest truth.”

“Neither did I,” said Mr. Browne. “I think her voice has greatly improved.”

Aunt Julia shrugged her shoulders and said with meek pride:

“Thirty years ago I hadn’t a bad voice as voices go.”

“I often told Julia,” said Aunt Kate emphatically, “that she was simply thrown away in that choir. But she never would be said by me.”

She turned as if to appeal to the good sense of the others against a refractory child while Aunt Julia gazed in front of her, a vague smile of reminiscence playing on her face.

“No,” continued Aunt Kate, “she wouldn’t be said or led by anyone, slaving there in that choir night and day, night and day. Six o’clock on Christmas morning! And all for what?”

“Well, isn’t it for the honour of God, Aunt Kate?” asked Mary Jane, twisting round on the piano-stool and smiling.

Aunt Kate turned fiercely on her niece and said:

“I know all about the honour of God, Mary Jane, but I think it’s not at all honourable for the pope to turn out the women out of the choirs that have slaved there all their lives and put little whipper-snappers of boys over their heads. I suppose it is for the good of the Church if the pope does it. But it’s not just, Mary Jane, and it’s not right.”

She had worked herself into a passion and would have continued in defence of her sister for it was a sore subject with her but Mary Jane, seeing that all the dancers had come back, intervened pacifically:

“Now, Aunt Kate, you’re giving scandal to Mr. Browne who is of the other persuasion.”

Aunt Kate turned to Mr. Browne, who was grinning at this allusion to his religion, and said hastily:

“O, I don’t question the pope’s being right. I’m only a stupid old woman and I wouldn’t presume to do such a thing. But there’s such a thing as common everyday politeness and gratitude. And if I were in Julia’s place I’d tell that Father Healey straight up to his face…”

“And besides, Aunt Kate,” said Mary Jane, “we really are all hungry and when we are hungry we are all very quarrelsome.”

“And when we are thirsty we are also quarrelsome,” added Mr. Browne.

“So that we had better go to supper,” said Mary Jane, “and finish the discussion afterwards.”

On the landing outside the drawing-room Gabriel found his wife and Mary Jane trying to persuade Miss Ivors to stay for supper. But Miss Ivors, who had put on her hat and was buttoning her cloak, would not stay. She did not feel in the least hungry and she had already overstayed her time.

“But only for ten minutes, Molly,” said Mrs. Conroy. “That won’t delay you.”

“To take a pick itself,” said Mary Jane, “after all your dancing.”

“I really couldn’t,” said Miss Ivors.

“I am afraid you didn’t enjoy yourself at all,” said Mary Jane hopelessly.

“Ever so much, I assure you,” said Miss Ivors, “but you really must let me run off now.”

“But how can you get home?” asked Mrs. Conroy.

“O, it’s only two steps up the quay.”

Gabriel hesitated a moment and said:

“If you will allow me, Miss Ivors, I’ll see you home if you are really obliged to go.”

But Miss Ivors broke away from them.

“I won’t hear of it,” she cried. “For goodness’ sake go in to your suppers and don’t mind me. I’m quite well able to take care of myself.”

“Well, you’re the comical girl, Molly,” said Mrs. Conroy frankly.

“Beannacht libh,” cried Miss Ivors, with a laugh, as she ran down the staircase.

Mary Jane gazed after her, a moody puzzled expression on her face, while Mrs. Conroy leaned over the banisters to listen for the hall-door. Gabriel asked himself was he the cause of her abrupt departure. But she did not seem to be in ill humour: she had gone away laughing. He stared blankly down the staircase.

At the moment Aunt Kate came toddling out of the supper-room, almost wringing her hands in despair.

“Where is Gabriel?” she cried. “Where on earth is Gabriel? There’s everyone waiting in there, stage to let, and nobody to carve the goose!”

“Here I am, Aunt Kate!” cried Gabriel, with sudden animation, “ready to carve a flock of geese, if necessary.”

A fat brown goose lay at one end of the table and at the other end, on a bed of creased paper strewn with sprigs of parsley, lay a great ham, stripped of its outer skin and peppered over with crust crumbs, a neat paper frill round its shin and beside this was a round of spiced beef. Between these rival ends ran parallel lines of side-dishes: two little minsters of jelly, red and yellow; a shallow dish full of blocks of blancmange and red jam, a large green leaf-shaped dish with a stalk-shaped handle, on which lay bunches of purple raisins and peeled almonds, a companion dish on which lay a solid rectangle of Smyrna figs, a dish of custard topped with grated nutmeg, a small bowl full of chocolates and sweets wrapped in gold and silver papers and a glass vase in which stood some tall celery stalks. In the centre of the table there stood, as sentries to a fruit-stand which upheld a pyramid of oranges and American apples, two squat old-fashioned decanters of cut glass, one containing port and the other dark sherry. On the closed square piano a pudding in a huge yellow dish lay in waiting and behind it were three squads of bottles of stout and ale and minerals, drawn up according to the colours of their uniforms, the first two black, with brown and red labels, the third and smallest squad white, with transverse green sashes.

Gabriel took his seat boldly at the head of the table and, having looked to the edge of the carver, plunged his fork firmly into the goose. He felt quite at ease now for he was an expert carver and liked nothing better than to find himself at the head of a well-laden table.

“Miss Furlong, what shall I send you?” he asked. “A wing or a slice of the breast?”

“Just a small slice of the breast.”

“Miss Higgins, what for you?”

“O, anything at all, Mr. Conroy.”

While Gabriel and Miss Daly exchanged plates of goose and plates of ham and spiced beef Lily went from guest to guest with a dish of hot floury potatoes wrapped in a white napkin. This was Mary Jane’s idea and she had also suggested apple sauce for the goose but Aunt Kate had said that plain roast goose without any apple sauce had always been good enough for her and she hoped she might never eat worse. Mary Jane waited on her pupils and saw that they got the best slices and Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia opened and carried across from the piano bottles of stout and ale for the gentlemen and bottles of minerals for the ladies. There was a great deal of confusion and laughter and noise, the noise of orders and counter-orders, of knives and forks, of corks and glass-stoppers. Gabriel began to carve second helpings as soon as he had finished the first round without serving himself. Everyone protested loudly so that he compromised by taking a long draught of stout for he had found the carving hot work. Mary Jane settled down quietly to her supper but Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia were still toddling round the table, walking on each other’s heels, getting in each other’s way and giving each other unheeded orders. Mr. Browne begged of them to sit down and eat their suppers and so did Gabriel but they said there was time enough, so that, at last, Freddy Malins stood up and, capturing Aunt Kate, plumped her down on her chair amid general laughter.

When everyone had been well served Gabriel said, smiling:

“Now, if anyone wants a little more of what vulgar people call stuffing let him or her speak.”

A chorus of voices invited him to begin his own supper and Lily came forward with three potatoes which she had reserved for him.

“Very well,” said Gabriel amiably, as he took another preparatory draught, “kindly forget my existence, ladies and gentlemen, for a few minutes.”

He set to his supper and took no part in the conversation with which the table covered Lily’s removal of the plates. The subject of talk was the opera company which was then at the Theatre Royal. Mr. Bartell D’Arcy, the tenor, a dark- complexioned young man with a smart moustache, praised very highly the leading contralto of the company but Miss Furlong thought she had a rather vulgar style of production. Freddy Malins said there was a Negro chieftain singing in the second part of the Gaiety pantomime who had one of the finest tenor voices he had ever heard.

“Have you heard him?” he asked Mr. Bartell D’Arcy across the table.

“No,” answered Mr. Bartell D’Arcy carelessly.

“Because,” Freddy Malins explained, “now I’d be curious to hear your opinion of him. I think he has a grand voice.”

“It takes Teddy to find out the really good things,” said Mr. Browne familiarly to the table.

“And why couldn’t he have a voice too?” asked Freddy Malins sharply. “Is it because he’s only a black?”

Nobody answered this question and Mary Jane led the table back to the legitimate opera. One of her pupils had given her a pass for Mignon. Of course it was very fine, she said, but it made her think of poor Georgina Burns. Mr. Browne could go back farther still, to the old Italian companies that used to come to Dublin – Tietjens, Ilma de Murzka, Campanini, the great Trebelli, Giuglini, Ravelli, Aramburo. Those were the days, he said, when there was something like singing to be heard in Dublin. He told too of how the top gallery of the old Royal used to be packed night after night, of how one night an Italian tenor had sung five encores to Let me like a Soldier fall, introducing a high C every time, and of how the gallery boys would sometimes in their enthusiasm unyoke the horses from the carriage of some great prima donna and pull her themselves through the streets to her hotel. Why did they never play the grand old operas now, he asked, Dinorah, Lucrezia Borgia? Because they could not get the voices to sing them: that was why.

“Oh, well,” said Mr. Bartell D’Arcy, “I presume there are as good singers today as there were then.”

“Where are they?” asked Mr. Browne defiantly.

“In London, Paris, Milan,” said Mr. Bartell D’Arcy warmly. “I suppose Caruso, for example, is quite as good, if not better than any of the men you have mentioned.”

“Maybe so,” said Mr. Browne. “But I may tell you I doubt it strongly.”

“O, I’d give anything to hear Caruso sing,” said Mary Jane.

“For me,” said Aunt Kate, who had been picking a bone, “there was only one tenor. To please me, I mean. But I suppose none of you ever heard of him.”

“Who was he, Miss Morkan?” asked Mr. Bartell D’Arcy politely.

“His name,” said Aunt Kate, “was Parkinson. I heard him when he was in his prime and I think he had then the purest tenor voice that was ever put into a man’s throat.”

“Strange,” said Mr. Bartell D’Arcy. “I never even heard of him.”

“Yes, yes, Miss Morkan is right,” said Mr. Browne. “I remember hearing of old Parkinson but he’s too far back for me.”

“A beautiful, pure, sweet, mellow English tenor,” said Aunt Kate with enthusiasm.

Gabriel having finished, the huge pudding was transferred to the table. The clatter of forks and spoons began again. Gabriel’s wife served out spoonfuls of the pudding and passed the plates down the table. Midway down they were held up by Mary Jane, who replenished them with raspberry or orange jelly or with blancmange and jam. The pudding was of Aunt Julia’s making and she received praises for it from all quarters She herself said that it was not quite brown enough.

“Well, I hope, Miss Morkan,” said Mr. Browne, “that I’m brown enough for you because, you know, I’m all brown.”

All the gentlemen, except Gabriel, ate some of the pudding out of compliment to Aunt Julia. As Gabriel never ate sweets the celery had been left for him. Freddy Malins also took a stalk of celery and ate it with his pudding. He had been told that celery was a capital thing for the blood and he was just then under doctor’s care. Mrs. Malins, who had been silent all through the supper, said that her son was going down to Mount Melleray in a week or so. The table then spoke of Mount Melleray, how bracing the air was down there, how hospitable the monks were and how they never asked for a penny-piece from their guests.

“And do you mean to say,” asked Mr. Browne incredulously, “that a chap can go down there and put up there as if it were a hotel and live on the fat of the land and then come away without paying anything?”

“O, most people give some donation to the monastery when they leave.” said Mary Jane.

“I wish we had an institution like that in our Church,” said Mr. Browne candidly.

He was astonished to hear that the monks never spoke, got up at two in the morning and slept in their coffins. He asked what they did it for.

“That’s the rule of the order,” said Aunt Kate firmly.

“Yes, but why?” asked Mr. Browne.

Aunt Kate repeated that it was the rule, that was all. Mr. Browne still seemed not to understand. Freddy Malins explained to him, as best he could, that the monks were trying to make up for the sins committed by all the sinners in the outside world. The explanation was not very clear for Mr. Browne grinned and said:

“I like that idea very much but wouldn’t a comfortable spring bed do them as well as a coffin?”

“The coffin,” said Mary Jane, “is to remind them of their last end.”

As the subject had grown lugubrious it was buried in a silence of the table during which Mrs. Malins could be heard saying to her neighbour in an indistinct undertone:

“They are very good men, the monks, very pious men.”

The raisins and almonds and figs and apples and oranges and chocolates and sweets were now passed about the table and Aunt Julia invited all the guests to have either port or sherry. At first Mr. Bartell D’Arcy refused to take either but one of his neighbours nudged him and whispered something to him upon which he allowed his glass to be filled. Gradually as the last glasses were being filled the conversation ceased. A pause followed, broken only by the noise of the wine and by unsettlings of chairs. The Misses Morkan, all three, looked down at the tablecloth. Someone coughed once or twice and then a few gentlemen patted the table gently as a signal for silence. The silence came and Gabriel pushed back his chair

The patting at once grew louder in encouragement and then ceased altogether. Gabriel leaned his ten trembling fingers on the tablecloth and smiled nervously at the company. Meeting a row of upturned faces he raised his eyes to the chandelier. The piano was playing a waltz tune and he could hear the skirts sweeping against the drawing-room door. People, perhaps, were standing in the snow on the quay outside, gazing up at the lighted windows and listening to the waltz music. The air was pure there. In the distance lay the park where the trees were weighted with snow. The Wellington Monument wore a gleaming cap of snow that flashed westward over the white field of Fifteen Acres.

He began:

"Ladies and Gentlemen,

“It has fallen to my lot this evening, as in years past, to perform a very pleasing task but a task for which I am afraid my poor powers as a speaker are all too inadequate.”

“No, no!” said Mr. Browne.

"But, however that may be, I can only ask you tonight to take the will for the deed and to lend me your attention for a few moments while I endeavour to express to you in words what my feelings are on this occasion.

“Ladies and Gentlemen, it is not the first time that we have gathered together under this hospitable roof, around this hospitable board. It is not the first time that we have been the recipients – or perhaps, I had better say, the victims – of the hospitality of certain good ladies.”

He made a circle in the air with his arm and paused. Everyone laughed or smiled at Aunt Kate and Aunt Julia and Mary Jane who all turned crimson with pleasure. Gabriel went on more boldly:

“I feel more strongly with every recurring year that our country has no tradition which does it so much honour and which it should guard so jealously as that of its hospitality. It is a tradition that is unique as far as my experience goes (and I have visited not a few places abroad) among the modern nations. Some would say, perhaps, that with us it is rather a failing than anything to be boasted of. But granted even that, it is, to my mind, a princely failing, and one that I trust will long be cultivated among us. Of one thing, at least, I am sure. As long as this one roof shelters the good ladies aforesaid – and I wish from my heart it may do so for many and many a long year to come – the tradition of genuine warm-hearted courteous Irish hospitality, which our forefathers have handed down to us and which we in turn must hand down to our descendants, is still alive among us.”

A hearty murmur of assent ran round the table. It shot through Gabriel’s mind that Miss Ivors was not there and that she had gone away discourteously: and he said with confidence in himself:

"Ladies and Gentlemen,

“A new generation is growing up in our midst, a generation actuated by new ideas and new principles. It is serious and enthusiastic for these new ideas and its enthusiasm, even when it is misdirected, is, I believe, in the main sincere. But we are living in a sceptical and, if I may use the phrase, a thought-tormented age: and sometimes I fear that this new generation, educated or hypereducated as it is, will lack those qualities of humanity, of hospitality, of kindly humour which belonged to an older day. Listening tonight to the names of all those great singers of the past it seemed to me, I must confess, that we were living in a less spacious age. Those days might, without exaggeration, be called spacious days: and if they are gone beyond recall let us hope, at least, that in gatherings such as this we shall still speak of them with pride and affection, still cherish in our hearts the memory of those dead and gone great ones whose fame the world will not willingly let die.”

“Hear, hear!” said Mr. Browne loudly.

“But yet,” continued Gabriel, his voice falling into a softer inflection, "there are always in gatherings such as this sadder thoughts that will recur to our minds: thoughts of the past, of youth, of changes, of absent faces that we miss here tonight. Our path through life is strewn with many such sad memories: and were we to brood upon them always we could not find the heart to go on bravely with our work among the living. We have all of us living duties and living affections which claim, and rightly claim, our strenuous endeavours.

“Therefore, I will not linger on the past. I will not let any gloomy moralising intrude upon us here tonight. Here we are gathered together for a brief moment from the bustle and rush of our everyday routine. We are met here as friends, in the spirit of good-fellowship, as colleagues, also to a certain extent, in the true spirit of camaraderie, and as the guests of – what shall I call them? – the Three Graces of the Dublin musical world.”

The table burst into applause and laughter at this allusion. Aunt Julia vainly asked each of her neighbours in turn to tell her what Gabriel had said.

“He says we are the Three Graces, Aunt Julia,” said Mary Jane.

Aunt Julia did not understand but she looked up, smiling, at Gabriel, who continued in the same vein:

"Ladies and Gentlemen,

“I will not attempt to play tonight the part that Paris played on another occasion. I will not attempt to choose between them. The task would be an invidious one and one beyond my poor powers. For when I view them in turn, whether it be our chief hostess herself, whose good heart, whose too good heart, has become a byword with all who know her, or her sister, who seems to be gifted with perennial youth and whose singing must have been a surprise and a revelation to us all tonight, or, last but not least, when I consider our youngest hostess, talented, cheerful, hard-working and the best of nieces, I confess, Ladies and Gentlemen, that I do not know to which of them I should award the prize.”

Gabriel glanced down at his aunts and, seeing the large smile on Aunt Julia’s face and the tears which had risen to Aunt Kate’s eyes, hastened to his close. He raised his glass of port gallantly, while every member of the company fingered a glass expectantly, and said loudly:

“Let us toast them all three together. Let us drink to their health, wealth, long life, happiness and prosperity and may they long continue to hold the proud and self-won position which they hold in their profession and the position of honour and affection which they hold in our hearts.”

All the guests stood up, glass in hand, and turning towards the three seated ladies, sang in unison, with Mr. Browne as leader:

For they are jolly gay fellows,
For they are jolly gay fellows,
For they are jolly gay fellows,
Which nobody can deny.

Aunt Kate was making frank use of her handkerchief and even Aunt Julia seemed moved. Freddy Malins beat time with his pudding-fork and the singers turned towards one another, as if in melodious conference, while they sang with emphasis:

Unless he tells a lie,
Unless he tells a lie,

Then, turning once more towards their hostesses, they sang:

For they are jolly gay fellows,
For they are jolly gay fellows,
For they are jolly gay fellows,
Which nobody can deny.

The acclamation which followed was taken up beyond the door of the supper-room by many of the other guests and renewed time after time, Freddy Malins acting as officer with his fork on high.

The piercing morning air came into the hall where they were standing so that Aunt Kate said:

“Close the door, somebody. Mrs. Malins will get her death of cold.”

“Browne is out there, Aunt Kate,” said Mary Jane.

“Browne is everywhere,” said Aunt Kate, lowering her voice.

Mary Jane laughed at her tone.

“Really,” she said archly, “he is very attentive.”

“He has been laid on here like the gas,” said Aunt Kate in the same tone, “all during the Christmas.”

She laughed herself this time good-humouredly and then added quickly:

“But tell him to come in, Mary Jane, and close the door. I hope to goodness he didn’t hear me.”

At that moment the hall-door was opened and Mr. Browne came in from the doorstep, laughing as if his heart would break. He was dressed in a long green overcoat with mock astrakhan cuffs and collar and wore on his head an oval fur cap. He pointed down the snow-covered quay from where the sound of shrill prolonged whistling was borne in.

“Teddy will have all the cabs in Dublin out,” he said.

Gabriel advanced from the little pantry behind the office, struggling into his overcoat and, looking round the hall, said:

“Gretta not down yet?”

“She’s getting on her things, Gabriel,” said Aunt Kate.

“Who’s playing up there?” asked Gabriel.

“Nobody. They’re all gone.”

“O no, Aunt Kate,” said Mary Jane. “Bartell D’Arcy and Miss O’Callaghan aren’t gone yet.”

“Someone is fooling at the piano anyhow,” said Gabriel.

Mary Jane glanced at Gabriel and Mr. Browne and said with a shiver:

“It makes me feel cold to look at you two gentlemen muffled up like that. I wouldn’t like to face your journey home at this hour.”

“I’d like nothing better this minute,” said Mr. Browne stoutly, “than a rattling fine walk in the country or a fast drive with a good spanking goer between the shafts.”

“We used to have a very good horse and trap at home,” said Aunt Julia sadly.

“The never-to-be-forgotten Johnny,” said Mary Jane, laughing.

Aunt Kate and Gabriel laughed too.

“Why, what was wonderful about Johnny?” asked Mr. Browne.

“The late lamented Patrick Morkan, our grandfather, that is,” explained Gabriel, “commonly known in his later years as the old gentleman, was a glue-boiler.”

“O, now, Gabriel,” said Aunt Kate, laughing, “he had a starch mill.”

“Well, glue or starch,” said Gabriel, “the old gentleman had a horse by the name of Johnny. And Johnny used to work in the old gentleman’s mill, walking round and round in order to drive the mill. That was all very well; but now comes the tragic part about Johnny. One fine day the old gentleman thought he’d like to drive out with the quality to a military review in the park.”

“The Lord have mercy on his soul,” said Aunt Kate compassionately.

“Amen,” said Gabriel. “So the old gentleman, as I said, harnessed Johnny and put on his very best tall hat and his very best stock collar and drove out in grand style from his ancestral mansion somewhere near Back Lane, I think.”

Everyone laughed, even Mrs. Malins, at Gabriel’s manner and Aunt Kate said:

“O, now, Gabriel, he didn’t live in Back Lane, really. Only the mill was there.”

“Out from the mansion of his forefathers,” continued Gabriel, “he drove with Johnny. And everything went on beautifully until Johnny came in sight of King Billy’s statue: and whether he fell in love with the horse King Billy sits on or whether he thought he was back again in the mill, anyhow he began to walk round the statue.”

Gabriel paced in a circle round the hall in his goloshes amid the laughter of the others.

“Round and round he went,” said Gabriel, “and the old gentleman, who was a very pompous old gentleman, was highly indignant. 'Go on, sir! What do you mean, sir? Johnny! Johnny! Most extraordinary conduct! Can’t understand the horse!”

The peal of laughter which followed Gabriel’s imitation of the incident was interrupted by a resounding knock at the hall door. Mary Jane ran to open it and let in Freddy Malins. Freddy Malins, with his hat well back on his head and his shoulders humped with cold, was puffing and steaming after his exertions.

“I could only get one cab,” he said.

“O, we’ll find another along the quay,” said Gabriel.

“Yes,” said Aunt Kate. “Better not keep Mrs. Malins standing in the draught.”

Mrs. Malins was helped down the front steps by her son and Mr. Browne and, after many manoeuvres, hoisted into the cab. Freddy Malins clambered in after her and spent a long time settling her on the seat, Mr. Browne helping him with advice. At last she was settled comfortably and Freddy Malins invited Mr. Browne into the cab. There was a good deal of confused talk, and then Mr. Browne got into the cab. The cabman settled his rug over his knees, and bent down for the address. The confusion grew greater and the cabman was directed differently by Freddy Malins and Mr. Browne, each of whom had his head out through a window of the cab. The difficulty was to know where to drop Mr. Browne along the route, and Aunt Kate, Aunt Julia and Mary Jane helped the discussion from the doorstep with cross-directions and contradictions and abundance of laughter. As for Freddy Malins he was speechless with laughter. He popped his head in and out of the window every moment to the great danger of his hat, and told his mother how the discussion was progressing, till at last Mr. Browne shouted to the bewildered cabman above the din of everybody’s laughter:

“Do you know Trinity College?”

“Yes, sir,” said the cabman.

“Well, drive bang up against Trinity College gates,” said Mr. Browne, “and then we’ll tell you where to go. You understand now?”

“Yes, sir,” said the cabman.

“Make like a bird for Trinity College.”

“Right, sir,” said the cabman.

The horse was whipped up and the cab rattled off along the quay amid a chorus of laughter and adieus.

Gabriel had not gone to the door with the others. He was in a dark part of the hall gazing up the staircase. A woman was standing near the top of the first flight, in the shadow also. He could not see her face but he could see the terra-cotta and salmon-pink panels of her skirt which the shadow made appear black and white. It was his wife. She was leaning on the banisters, listening to something. Gabriel was surprised at her stillness and strained his ear to listen also. But he could hear little save the noise of laughter and dispute on the front steps, a few chords struck on the piano and a few notes of a man’s voice singing.

He stood still in the gloom of the hall, trying to catch the air that the voice was singing and gazing up at his wife. There was grace and mystery in her attitude as if she were a symbol of something. He asked himself what is a woman standing on the stairs in the shadow, listening to distant music, a symbol of. If he were a painter he would paint her in that attitude. Her blue felt hat would show off the bronze of her hair against the darkness and the dark panels of her skirt would show off the light ones. Distant Music he would call the picture if he were a painter.

The hall-door was closed; and Aunt Kate, Aunt Julia and Mary Jane came down the hall, still laughing.

“Well, isn’t Freddy terrible?” said Mary Jane. “He’s really terrible.”

Gabriel said nothing but pointed up the stairs towards where his wife was standing. Now that the hall-door was closed the voice and the piano could be heard more clearly. Gabriel held up his hand for them to be silent. The song seemed to be in the old Irish tonality and the singer seemed uncertain both of his words and of his voice. The voice, made plaintive by distance and by the singer’s hoarseness, faintly illuminated the cadence of the air with words expressing grief:

O, the rain falls on my heavy locks
And the dew wets my skin,
My babe lies cold…

“O,” exclaimed Mary Jane. “It’s Bartell D’Arcy singing and he wouldn’t sing all the night. O, I’ll get him to sing a song before he goes.”

“O, do, Mary Jane,” said Aunt Kate.

Mary Jane brushed past the others and ran to the staircase, but before she reached it the singing stopped and the piano was closed abruptly.

“O, what a pity!” she cried. “Is he coming down, Gretta?”

Gabriel heard his wife answer yes and saw her come down towards them. A few steps behind her were Mr. Bartell D’Arcy and Miss O’Callaghan.

“O, Mr. D’Arcy,” cried Mary Jane, “it’s downright mean of you to break off like that when we were all in raptures listening to you.”

“I have been at him all the evening,” said Miss O’Callaghan, “and Mrs. Conroy, too, and he told us he had a dreadful cold and couldn’t sing.”

“O, Mr. D’Arcy,” said Aunt Kate, “now that was a great fib to tell.”

“Can’t you see that I’m as hoarse as a crow?” said Mr. D’Arcy roughly.

He went into the pantry hastily and put on his overcoat. The others, taken aback by his rude speech, could find nothing to say. Aunt Kate wrinkled her brows and made signs to the others to drop the subject. Mr. D’Arcy stood swathing his neck carefully and frowning.

“It’s the weather,” said Aunt Julia, after a pause.

“Yes, everybody has colds,” said Aunt Kate readily, “everybody.”

“They say,” said Mary Jane, “we haven’t had snow like it for thirty years; and I read this morning in the newspapers that the snow is general all over Ireland.”

“I love the look of snow,” said Aunt Julia sadly.

“So do I,” said Miss O’Callaghan. “I think Christmas is never really Christmas unless we have the snow on the ground.”

“But poor Mr. D’Arcy doesn’t like the snow,” said Aunt Kate, smiling.

Mr. D’Arcy came from the pantry, fully swathed and buttoned, and in a repentant tone told them the history of his cold. Everyone gave him advice and said it was a great pity and urged him to be very careful of his throat in the night air. Gabriel watched his wife, who did not join in the conversation. She was standing right under the dusty fanlight and the flame of the gas lit up the rich bronze of her hair, which he had seen her drying at the fire a few days before. She was in the same attitude and seemed unaware of the talk about her At last she turned towards them and Gabriel saw that there was colour on her cheeks and that her eyes were shining. A sudden tide of joy went leaping out of his heart.

“Mr. D’Arcy,” she said, “what is the name of that song you were singing?”

“It’s called The Lass of Aughrim,” said Mr. D’Arcy, “but I couldn’t remember it properly. Why? Do you know it?”

“The Lass of Aughrim,” she repeated. “I couldn’t think of the name.”

“It’s a very nice air,” said Mary Jane. “I’m sorry you were not in voice tonight.”

“Now, Mary Jane,” said Aunt Kate, “don’t annoy Mr. D’Arcy. I won’t have him annoyed.”

Seeing that all were ready to start she shepherded them to the door, where good-night was said:

“Well, good-night, Aunt Kate, and thanks for the pleasant evening.”

“Good-night, Gabriel. Good-night, Gretta!”

“Good-night, Aunt Kate, and thanks ever so much. Goodnight, Aunt Julia.”

“O, good-night, Gretta, I didn’t see you.”

“Good-night, Mr. D’Arcy. Good-night, Miss O’Callaghan.”

“Good-night, Miss Morkan.”

“Good-night, again.”

“Good-night, all. Safe home.”

“Good-night. Good night.”

The morning was still dark. A dull, yellow light brooded over the houses and the river; and the sky seemed to be descending. It was slushy underfoot; and only streaks and patches of snow lay on the roofs, on the parapets of the quay and on the area railings. The lamps were still burning redly in the murky air and, across the river, the palace of the Four Courts stood out menacingly against the heavy sky.

She was walking on before him with Mr. Bartell D’Arcy, her shoes in a brown parcel tucked under one arm and her hands holding her skirt up from the slush. She had no longer any grace of attitude, but Gabriel’s eyes were still bright with happiness. The blood went bounding along his veins; and the thoughts went rioting through his brain, proud, joyful, tender, valorous.

She was walking on before him so lightly and so erect that he longed to run after her noiselessly, catch her by the shoulders and say something foolish and affectionate into her ear. She seemed to him so frail that he longed to defend her against something and then to be alone with her. Moments of their secret life together burst like stars upon his memory. A heliotrope envelope was lying beside his breakfast-cup and he was caressing it with his hand. Birds were twittering in the ivy and the sunny web of the curtain was shimmering along the floor: he could not eat for happiness. They were standing on the crowded platform and he was placing a ticket inside the warm palm of her glove. He was standing with her in the cold, looking in through a grated window at a man making bottles in a roaring furnace. It was very cold. Her face, fragrant in the cold air, was quite close to his; and suddenly he called out to the man at the furnace:

“Is the fire hot, sir?”

But the man could not hear with the noise of the furnace. It was just as well. He might have answered rudely.

A wave of yet more tender joy escaped from his heart and went coursing in warm flood along his arteries. Like the tender fire of stars moments of their life together, that no one knew of or would ever know of, broke upon and illumined his memory. He longed to recall to her those moments, to make her forget the years of their dull existence together and remember only their moments of ecstasy. For the years, he felt, had not quenched his soul or hers. Their children, his writing, her household cares had not quenched all their souls’ tender fire. In one letter that he had written to her then he had said: “Why is it that words like these seem to me so dull and cold? Is it because there is no word tender enough to be your name?”

Like distant music these words that he had written years before were borne towards him from the past. He longed to be alone with her. When the others had gone away, when he and she were in the room in the hotel, then they would be alone together. He would call her softly:

“Gretta!”

Perhaps she would not hear at once: she would be undressing. Then something in his voice would strike her. She would turn and look at him…

At the corner of Winetavern Street they met a cab. He was glad of its rattling noise as it saved him from conversation. She was looking out of the window and seemed tired. The others spoke only a few words, pointing out some building or street. The horse galloped along wearily under the murky morning sky, dragging his old rattling box after his heels, and Gabriel was again in a cab with her, galloping to catch the boat, galloping to their honeymoon.

As the cab drove across O’Connell Bridge Miss O’Callaghan said:

“They say you never cross O’Connell Bridge without seeing a white horse.”

“I see a white man this time,” said Gabriel.

“Where?” asked Mr. Bartell D’Arcy.

Gabriel pointed to the statue, on which lay patches of snow. Then he nodded familiarly to it and waved his hand.

“Good-night, Dan,” he said gaily.

When the cab drew up before the hotel, Gabriel jumped out and, in spite of Mr. Bartell D’Arcy’s protest, paid the driver. He gave the man a shilling over his fare. The man saluted and said:

“A prosperous New Year to you, sir.”

“The same to you,” said Gabriel cordially.

She leaned for a moment on his arm in getting out of the cab and while standing at the curbstone, bidding the others good- night. She leaned lightly on his arm, as lightly as when she had danced with him a few hours before. He had felt proud and happy then, happy that she was his, proud of her grace and wifely carriage. But now, after the kindling again of so many memories, the first touch of her body, musical and strange and perfumed, sent through him a keen pang of lust. Under cover of her silence he pressed her arm closely to his side; and, as they stood at the hotel door, he felt that they had escaped from their lives and duties, escaped from home and friends and run away together with wild and radiant hearts to a new adventure.

An old man was dozing in a great hooded chair in the hall. He lit a candle in the office and went before them to the stairs. They followed him in silence, their feet falling in soft thuds on the thickly carpeted stairs. She mounted the stairs behind the porter, her head bowed in the ascent, her frail shoulders curved as with a burden, her skirt girt tightly about her. He could have flung his arms about her hips and held her still, for his arms were trembling with desire to seize her and only the stress of his nails against the palms of his hands held the wild impulse of his body in check. The porter halted on the stairs to settle his guttering candle. They halted, too, on the steps below him. In the silence Gabriel could hear the falling of the molten wax into the tray and the thumping of his own heart against his ribs.

The porter led them along a corridor and opened a door. Then he set his unstable candle down on a toilet-table and asked at what hour they were to be called in the morning.

“Eight,” said Gabriel.

The porter pointed to the tap of the electric-light and began a muttered apology, but Gabriel cut him short.

“We don’t want any light. We have light enough from the street. And I say,” he added, pointing to the candle, “you might remove that handsome article, like a good man.”

The porter took up his candle again, but slowly, for he was surprised by such a novel idea. Then he mumbled good-night and went out. Gabriel shot the lock to.

A ghastly light from the street lamp lay in a long shaft from one window to the door. Gabriel threw his overcoat and hat on a couch and crossed the room towards the window. He looked down into the street in order that his emotion might calm a little. Then he turned and leaned against a chest of drawers with his back to the light. She had taken off her hat and cloak and was standing before a large swinging mirror, unhooking her waist. Gabriel paused for a few moments, watching her, and then said:

"Gretta! "

She turned away from the mirror slowly and walked along the shaft of light towards him. Her face looked so serious and weary that the words would not pass Gabriel’s lips. No, it was not the moment yet.

“You looked tired,” he said.

“I am a little,” she answered.

“You don’t feel ill or weak?”

“No, tired: that’s all.”

She went on to the window and stood there, looking out. Gabriel waited again and then, fearing that diffidence was about to conquer him, he said abruptly:

“By the way, Gretta!”

“What is it?”

“You know that poor fellow Malins?” he said quickly.

“Yes. What about him?”

“Well, poor fellow, he’s a decent sort of chap, after all,” continued Gabriel in a false voice. “He gave me back that sovereign I lent him, and I didn’t expect it, really. It’s a pity he wouldn’t keep away from that Browne, because he’s not a bad fellow, really.”

He was trembling now with annoyance. Why did she seem so abstracted? He did not know how he could begin. Was she annoyed, too, about something? If she would only turn to him or come to him of her own accord! To take her as she was would be brutal. No, he must see some ardour in her eyes first. He longed to be master of her strange mood.

“When did you lend him the pound?” she asked, after a pause.

Gabriel strove to restrain himself from breaking out into brutal language about the sottish Malins and his pound. He longed to cry to her from his soul, to crush her body against his, to overmaster her. But he said:

“O, at Christmas, when he opened that little Christmas-card shop in Henry Street.”

He was in such a fever of rage and desire that he did not hear her come from the window. She stood before him for an instant, looking at him strangely. Then, suddenly raising herself on tiptoe and resting her hands lightly on his shoulders, she kissed him.

“You are a very generous person, Gabriel,” she said.

Gabriel, trembling with delight at her sudden kiss and at the quaintness of her phrase, put his hands on her hair and began smoothing it back, scarcely touching it with his fingers. The washing had made it fine and brilliant. His heart was brimming over with happiness. Just when he was wishing for it she had come to him of her own accord. Perhaps her thoughts had been running with his. Perhaps she had felt the impetuous desire that was in him, and then the yielding mood had come upon her. Now that she had fallen to him so easily, he wondered why he had been so diffident.

He stood, holding her head between his hands. Then, slipping one arm swiftly about her body and drawing her towards him, he said softly:

“Gretta, dear, what are you thinking about?”

She did not answer nor yield wholly to his arm. He said again, softly:

“Tell me what it is, Gretta. I think I know what is the matter. Do I know?”

She did not answer at once. Then she said in an outburst of tears:

“O, I am thinking about that song, The Lass of Aughrim.”

She broke loose from him and ran to the bed and, throwing her arms across the bed-rail, hid her face. Gabriel stood stockstill for a moment in astonishment and then followed her. As he passed in the way of the cheval-glass he caught sight of himself in full length, his broad, well-filled shirt-front, the face whose expression always puzzled him when he saw it in a mirror, and his glimmering gilt-rimmed eyeglasses. He halted a few paces from her and said:

“What about the song? Why does that make you cry?”

She raised her head from her arms and dried her eyes with the back of her hand like a child. A kinder note than he had intended went into his voice.

“Why, Gretta?” he asked.

“I am thinking about a person long ago who used to sing that song.”

“And who was the person long ago?” asked Gabriel, smiling.

“It was a person I used to know in Galway when I was living with my grandmother,” she said.

The smile passed away from Gabriel’s face. A dull anger began to gather again at the back of his mind and the dull fires of his lust began to glow angrily in his veins.

“Someone you were in love with?” he asked ironically.

“It was a young boy I used to know,” she answered, “named Michael Furey. He used to sing that song, The Lass of Aughrim. He was very delicate.”

Gabriel was silent. He did not wish her to think that he was interested in this delicate boy.

“I can see him so plainly,” she said, after a moment. “Such eyes as he had: big, dark eyes! And such an expression in them – an expression!”

“O, then, you are in love with him?” said Gabriel.

“I used to go out walking with him,” she said, “when I was in Galway.”

A thought flew across Gabriel’s mind.

“Perhaps that was why you wanted to go to Galway with that Ivors girl?” he said coldly.

She looked at him and asked in surprise:

“What for?”

Her eyes made Gabriel feel awkward. He shrugged his shoulders and said:

“How do I know? To see him, perhaps.”

She looked away from him along the shaft of light towards the window in silence.

“He is dead,” she said at length. “He died when he was only seventeen. Isn’t it a terrible thing to die so young as that?”

“What was he?” asked Gabriel, still ironically.

“He was in the gasworks,” she said.

Gabriel felt humiliated by the failure of his irony and by the evocation of this figure from the dead, a boy in the gasworks. While he had been full of memories of their secret life together, full of tenderness and joy and desire, she had been comparing him in her mind with another. A shameful consciousness of his own person assailed him. He saw himself as a ludicrous figure, acting as a pennyboy for his aunts, a nervous, well-meaning sentimentalist, orating to vulgarians and idealising his own clownish lusts, the pitiable fatuous fellow he had caught a glimpse of in the mirror. Instinctively he turned his back more to the light lest she might see the shame that burned upon his forehead.

He tried to keep up his tone of cold interrogation, but his voice when he spoke was humble and indifferent.

“I suppose you were in love with this Michael Furey, Gretta,” he said.

“I was great with him at that time,” she said.

Her voice was veiled and sad. Gabriel, feeling now how vain it would be to try to lead her whither he had purposed, caressed one of her hands and said, also sadly:

“And what did he die of so young, Gretta? Consumption, was it?”

“I think he died for me,” she answered.

A vague terror seized Gabriel at this answer, as if, at that hour when he had hoped to triumph, some impalpable and vindictive being was coming against him, gathering forces against him in its vague world. But he shook himself free of it with an effort of reason and continued to caress her hand. He did not question her again, for he felt that she would tell him of herself. Her hand was warm and moist: it did not respond to his touch, but he continued to caress it just as he had caressed her first letter to him that spring morning.

“It was in the winter,” she said, “about the beginning of the winter when I was going to leave my grandmother’s and come up here to the convent. And he was ill at the time in his lodgings in Galway and wouldn’t be let out, and his people in Oughterard were written to. He was in decline, they said, or something like that. I never knew rightly.”

She paused for a moment and sighed.

“Poor fellow,” she said. “He was very fond of me and he was such a gentle boy. We used to go out together, walking, you know, Gabriel, like the way they do in the country. He was going to study singing only for his health. He had a very good voice, poor Michael Furey.”

“Well; and then?” asked Gabriel.

“And then when it came to the time for me to leave Galway and come up to the convent he was much worse and I wouldn’t be let see him so I wrote him a letter saying I was going up to Dublin and would be back in the summer, and hoping he would be better then.”

She paused for a moment to get her voice under control, and then went on:

“Then the night before I left, I was in my grandmother’s house in Nuns’ Island, packing up, and I heard gravel thrown up against the window. The window was so wet I couldn’t see, so I ran downstairs as I was and slipped out the back into the garden and there was the poor fellow at the end of the garden, shivering.”

“And did you not tell him to go back?” asked Gabriel.

“I implored of him to go home at once and told him he would get his death in the rain. But he said he did not want to live. I can see his eyes as well as well! He was standing at the end of the wall where there was a tree.”

“And did he go home?” asked Gabriel.

“Yes, he went home. And when I was only a week in the convent he died and he was buried in Oughterard, where his people came from. O, the day I heard that, that he was dead!”

She stopped, choking with sobs, and, overcome by emotion, flung herself face downward on the bed, sobbing in the quilt. Gabriel held her hand for a moment longer, irresolutely, and then, shy of intruding on her grief, let it fall gently and walked quietly to the window.

She was fast asleep.

Gabriel, leaning on his elbow, looked for a few moments unresentfully on her tangled hair and half-open mouth, listening to her deep-drawn breath. So she had had that romance in her life: a man had died for her sake. It hardly pained him now to think how poor a part he, her husband, had played in her life. He watched her while she slept, as though he and she had never lived together as man and wife. His curious eyes rested long upon her face and on her hair: and, as he thought of what she must have been then, in that time of her first girlish beauty, a strange, friendly pity for her entered his soul. He did not like to say even to himself that her face was no longer beautiful, but he knew that it was no longer the face for which Michael Furey had braved death.

Perhaps she had not told him all the story. His eyes moved to the chair over which she had thrown some of her clothes. A petticoat string dangled to the floor. One boot stood upright, its limp upper fallen down: the fellow of it lay upon its side. He wondered at his riot of emotions of an hour before. From what had it proceeded? From his aunt’s supper, from his own foolish speech, from the wine and dancing, the merry-making when saying good-night in the hall, the pleasure of the walk along the river in the snow. Poor Aunt Julia! She, too, would soon be a shade with the shade of Patrick Morkan and his horse. He had caught that haggard look upon her face for a moment when she was singing Arrayed for the Bridal. Soon, perhaps, he would be sitting in that same drawing-room, dressed in black, his silk hat on his knees. The blinds would be drawn down and Aunt Kate would be sitting beside him, crying and blowing her nose and telling him how Julia had died. He would cast about in his mind for some words that might console her, and would find only lame and useless ones. Yes, yes: that would happen very soon.

The air of the room chilled his shoulders. He stretched himself cautiously along under the sheets and lay down beside his wife. One by one, they were all becoming shades. Better pass boldly into that other world, in the full glory of some passion, than fade and wither dismally with age. He thought of how she who lay beside him had locked in her heart for so many years that image of her lover’s eyes when he had told her that he did not wish to live.

Generous tears filled Gabriel’s eyes. He had never felt like that himself towards any woman, but he knew that such a feeling must be love. The tears gathered more thickly in his eyes and in the partial darkness he imagined he saw the form of a young man standing under a dripping tree. Other forms were near. His soul had approached that region where dwell the vast hosts of the dead. He was conscious of, but could not apprehend, their wayward and flickering existence. His own identity was fading out into a grey impalpable world: the solid world itself, which these dead had one time reared and lived in, was dissolving and dwindling.

A few light taps upon the pane made him turn to the window. It had begun to snow again. He watched sleepily the flakes, silver and dark, falling obliquely against the lamplight. The time had come for him to set out on his journey westward. Yes, the newspapers were right: snow was general all over Ireland. It was falling on every part of the dark central plain, on the treeless hills, falling softly upon the Bog of Allen and, farther westward, softly falling into the dark mutinous Shannon waves. It was falling, too, upon every part of the lonely churchyard on the hill where Michael Furey lay buried. It lay thickly drifted on the crooked crosses and headstones, on the spears of the little gate, on the barren thorns. His soul swooned slowly as he heard the snow falling faintly through the universe and faintly falling, like the descent of their last end, upon all the living and the dead.

王智量 是你吗?

我很怀疑根本没有人看完。

应该让 bot 写个 tl;dr 出来的,可惜最近那个插件处于不稳定期,一会能用一会不能用,被我给暂时关掉了

救命,赶紧恢复 aibot 吧 :sob:我们要写读后感了

好的,白天的任务安排上,拿个本地实例打断点调试

感谢你 :pray: :sob:我和室友这周都要写选修课的读后感了 :smiling_face_with_tear:

哎,被 openai 卡脖子的滋味真不好受啊。不试试 BIDU/BABA 公司的?

都行,:foot::door:的 AIBot 真的很实用:pleading_face:

为啥不注册一个号呢?虽然只能用 3.5​:grin:

通过退回以前的版本,现在应该是稳定了

都柏林人