This auto‑translation is so stupid, can we remove this feature
I’m feeling very failed right now; the new girls I can meet are getting fewer, and I’m losing motivation to socialize, reverting to my introverted nature. During Halloween I went to a very boring party, it made me depressed, so I left early. At the party there was almost only one white girl, which is rather rare, and she quickly understood why there were no other white girls, and left after a short while. She was of average looks. Not long after, seeing that no new people joined, I also left. When it’s time to cut off, cut off; this really has no fault. It was also my first time seeing a white girl feel out of place at a party, feeling excluded, but of course she is strong inside, not bowing to a little money, decisively left, not being a , which is still worth learning.
Speaking of the second crush guest, I now realize I haven’t been able to connect with her because my friend constantly, intentionally or not, blocks me; almost every time, she only talks to my friend, giving other guys no chance. When I ask him how things are progressing, he always gives vague, dismissive answers; ask if he has a date, how the conversation went, he also refuses to answer me. I suspect he gave me a lot of misinformation before, like maybe he already has contact info and is communicating behind my back, telling me he doesn’t know her name It was actually me who suggested that this little girl looked cute, encouraging him to set aside societal prejudice and bravely pursue love, but now he’s playing mind games with me, a 33‑year‑old postdoc dating a 19‑year
Today was another extremely failed day, and now socializing is becoming increasingly aimless, like a walking corpse. I casually chatted with two white women, one from Denver and one from Maine, and it felt like a refreshing spring breeze. Their personalities are completely different from the California blue‑collar types; they are very gentle, introverted, graceful, and refined, unlike many blue‑collar folks who, as soon as they speak, seem unable to connect with them. Moreover, 99% of the California‑styled blue‑collar people have the habit of “flying leaves,” whereas the red‑neck country folk are not as wild. There’s also a mixed‑race person with a Black father, which is very interesting. His grandmother fled to Vietnam during the Cultural Revolution, gave birth to his mother there, then during the Vietnam War fled again to the United States and fully succeeded. His grandmother never forgot her roots; instead, she taught him Chinese every day, and he speaks Mandarin fluently, while also being able to communicate with his Black peers. I see that he is now embracing both red‑neck white women on either side and is about to ascend further. This story tells me not to give up on socializing; sometimes, even when you don’t know what you’re doing, just go ahead, and a happy accident may occur.
Agree, even though semiconductors fell today, I’m bullish on AI long term and added to my position again, currently at a floating loss of 3.5%. I also added to gold; CPM Group predicts volatility in the coming weeks, but a long‑term bullish outlook for 2026, currently at a floating profit of 1.5%,
So pitiful, my postdoc friend was doing well, but then her successful mother flew from Virginia to here for a meeting, met her, and I guess she would have shot my friend on the spot. Kawaii Soud (卡哇伊搜达)
Heartthrob female contestant number two returns, apparently has a boyfriend, can only fire a gg. But recently another more significant matter has been lingering on my mind, so I didn’t pay much attention. After it is resolved, I’ll update again.
By the way, after NeurIPS ended, dinner was at a somewhat famous Hunan restaurant in SD. When I saw Fei‑Fei Li, I sat at the next table. The atmosphere was very tense; the whole table of students only ate in silence, a “no strangers allowed” vibe. Many recognized her but didn’t dare to speak to her. It seems the rumors about Fei‑Fei Li being very mean are not unfounded.
"I think I saw her today, just as I was about to completely forget her… Too beautiful, 8/10 , 8.5/10!
Beauty is everywhere, yet I couldn’t find even a single flower to adorn my heart.
Spring’s vibrant colors are all just fleeting visitors, I wish I had a kindred spirit to understand my feelings."
Today I’ve seen quite a few beautiful women again, and it feels like I’ve seen all the flowers of Chang’an in a day. I’m afraid I won’t see any for days after this
Last year, during the Palestinian protests, I saw a cute girl who stuck in my mind. I never thought I’d see her again today—suddenly, she triggered my buried memories. I didn’t dare approach her
Now, in my social circle, I still can’t meet new beautiful women. All I can do is be friends with time, playing it long and slow, hoping my network will eventually reach the tipping point
Well, I’ve met a white woman who constantly shares her experience of being followed and harassed by a weirdo—now I’m too scared to even talk to anyone, afraid of being seen as a creeper…
Quite a lot of issues here: there are Middle Eastern troublemakers, and there are also polite stalkers—really annoying. As for that white woman, I find her completely unappealing—she has a face full of acne—but because she’s blonde with blue eyes and a petite build, and lacks a Resting Bitch Face, she’s repeatedly harassed by creeps. Americans can be really oppressive. However, based on my friends’ reactions here, this generation seems to dislike this cold approach—at least there needs to be some shared activity or common ground.
, which is still worth learning.
A week of suffering and doing nothing.
